Louis Tomlinson

It's just where it helps me remember and helps me put things into perspective that, you know, just because a radio station isn't playing my single, you know, that hurts 0.000001% in the same as something like that.

So I think because I was so challenged emotionally and I survived the experience, it's given me a weird kind of confidence, to be honest.

Just knowing that life...

probably won't get that dark again you sometimes don't realize that the role that your parents were playing until they're not around that they were almost a sort of tectonic plate underneath everything was that was that a realization at that point big time i i there was this true dependency on my mom that i did not realize until i'd got until i'd lost my mom um so i think there was definitely stuff that i've had to learn like being like on my own and

And often she would inspire confidence.

You know, I'd say, I'm worried about this.

I don't want to go to this audition.

Or I don't want to do this.

Or I'm worried about this song.

And she like, you know, she always did.

Made me feel like I could do anything in the planet.

And she'd actually made me feel stupid for even questioning the fact that I couldn't do anything.

You know, so I think there's moments like that where you have to, you've almost had to relearn confidence like that.

And how does a young man grieve the loss of his mother at such a young age?

Everyone, obviously everyone's grief is completely individual.

Something I found out more recently, purpose was mine.

Now, this is, again, not a luxury that everyone has in a situation like I found myself in.

I grieved and I had moments where I was deeply, deeply upset.

But these were fleeting moments because there was too much to do for my sisters.

There was too much to do for my nan and grandad.