Louis Tomlinson

No.

You know, I'm sure you've heard about this.

My vocal coach always used to say to me that the feeling of being anxious and excited are near identical in feeling.

And that was something that always kind of stuck with me, really, because...

Not always, but a lot of stuff that feels really good can be quite intimidating beforehand.

There's an anxiety that comes with doing something that is out of the ordinary, I suppose.

I can distinctly remember, not so much now, but on the first tour, I would literally, before going out on stage, I'd literally, as futile and as ridiculous as it is, I'd think to myself, how do I run away from this?

How could I literally run out the door and not do the gig?

So maybe that would be a version of anxiety.

But it didn't stop me getting up there and doing it, I suppose.

Maybe there's the difference.

A couple of years after the passing of your mother, you lose your younger sister, Felicity.

And the circumstances of her death are deeply, deeply tragic.

When I was speaking to several people in your life around you, they talked about how you had done so much since the passing of your mother to support your sisters, how you'd really taken on the role as being the quote-unquote head of the family, is what they told me.

And the tragedy is deepened by the fact that she's 18 years old at the time.

Again, an unthinkable tragedy for one person to go through in their life.

But for you to go through two of these things in succession is, I mean, I don't have the words.

Yeah, that was kind of what I was speaking of before, that moment of stubbing your toe and that kind of aggravating you.

That was just like that idea accentuated.

I just couldn't believe, I couldn't believe how deeply unlucky we've been as a family.