Louis Tomlinson

That was just, now, you know, maybe it's not overly uncommon.

People that you lose parents young and obviously struggle to deal with a bit at the time.

I felt,

angry at life and I felt angry mostly on behalf of my family.

Now it wouldn't be, like obviously I would know that I was included in this idea, but I wouldn't be, I wouldn't be thinking, what have I done to deserve this?

It was more Daisy and Phoebe are so young.

They've already had so, and Lottie as well, already had so much to deal with.

why this and why now I just it just it was it did feel incredibly incredibly unfair that's something that's interesting about grief is just how different each thing feels um because that definitely it hit me in a different way and it was it was completely sudden and immediate I uh

Again, one of the most challenging moments in my life.

So I'm sat in my house in London and everything was like fine.

I was a little bit worried.

I'd been worried about Felicity for the months prior, as I was worried about all my sisters.

And I was just sat in my front room, smoking a joint, not thinking about anything really.

And then the doorbell rang at like one in the morning or something, or maybe like midnight.

And I had this feeling come over me straight away.

And I'm not really this kind of guy where I'm, you know, on another day, I might have been worried that the police were coming to grab me weed, but it wasn't like that.

I just had this thing come over me straight away and I knew it was bad.

I knew that, look, when someone rings your doorbell at that time, it's not, it's rarely good news.

And I saw, and then I opened the gates.

I've got these gates and I opened the gates and I saw the police car and the policeman