Lucy

And like, I was obviously very heartbroken and sad, but I don't feel like I'm like scared to be like heartbroken again.

Like, I don't think that's,

Like I learned a lot from that.

I learned I have like a good group of people around me that can help me.

So like during the last relationship, I was like, I guess pretty unhappy, but like I didn't want to be alone in a sense.

Yeah.

So I like just put up with it.

And like my anxiety got really bad during the relationship.

Like I was starting to have anxiety attacks a lot, just like unprompted.

And so I think I like my brain is kind of like going into survival mode when I start to get close to someone because they're like, you don't want to have those anxiety attacks.

You don't want to be unhappy and feel stuck again type thing.

Yeah.

Cause like, yeah, I wasn't sure if that was the case or if I was like, cause I'm kind of being like discouraged of dating now or like I haven't been on the dating apps like in a couple months since that guy and I like stopped talking.

Cause I'm like, there's like, I match with good guys, but then I'm like going out of my way to find something to stop talking to them about.

So it's like, like, I don't want to say like, I'm wasting these good guys.

Like that sounds bad.

I don't know how else to rephrase it, but like.

I'm going through all these good guys that could be really good for me or nice, but I'm just maybe not in the right headspace in something.

I don't know.

Yeah.