Lucy

Yeah.

Do you ever talk to your therapist?

Yeah, I've been in it for about a year now.

I like tell her like every time I go on a date or like if I'm like going through or like, yeah, I tell her like if I got the if from someone and stuff and she says like the family dynamic I have, like my parents and stuff, she said she thinks that has a big thing to do with it.

Like I've never really seen like a good relationship ever in my life.

So she thinks maybe that has something to do with it.

I think that it's, like, could be true.

Like, every relationship I've kind of seen, like, they just fizzled out or, like, even the ones I've been in, they just fizzled out or, like, someone does something bad to the other person.

So she said, like, yeah, probably, like, my whole life seeing that could have really affected, like... Because, like you said before, like, I am in a good spot right now where, like, I really do enjoy being alone.

Like, right after the breakup and stuff, like, even...

a day alone I would just like be so uncomfortable with my alone time and just hanging out with myself but now I am so comfortable with it so I'm like adding someone into the mix like

I'd rather just be alone watching TV than having to go hang out with someone.

I mean, like with the last guy.

um with the last guy like yeah i got the ache or like i didn't feel it but then i still kept seeing him um i want to say like a month still after that and then then he mentioned how important his dogs were you meeting them no like he mentioned that i went to his house he made me dinner and all that and then i still kept seeing him for like a month after because yeah i was like i mean i was so into it up until now like there can't be anything wrong

But then because I wasn't into it, I think he can kind of tell because he he ended it because he was like, I don't think you're into this anymore.

And like I told you, I'm intentional and I want to meet someone.

And I'm like, OK.

Yeah, I think I definitely have in my head a fairy tale fantasy where I'm, like, even if I match with someone on Hinge, I, like, immediately think, like, does he look nice?

Or, like, does he look like he can fit in with my friends and my family?

And it's, like, I just match with him.