Lucy

So she said, like, yeah, probably, like, my whole life seeing that could have really affected, like... Because, like you said before, like, I am in a good spot right now where, like, I really do enjoy being alone.

Like, right after the breakup and stuff, like, even...

a day alone I would just like be so uncomfortable with my alone time and just hanging out with myself but now I am so comfortable with it so I'm like adding someone into the mix like

I'd rather just be alone watching TV than having to go hang out with someone.

I mean, like with the last guy.

um with the last guy like yeah i got the ache or like i didn't feel it but then i still kept seeing him um i want to say like a month still after that and then then he mentioned how important his dogs were you meeting them no like he mentioned that i went to his house he made me dinner and all that and then i still kept seeing him for like a month after because yeah i was like i mean i was so into it up until now like there can't be anything wrong

But then because I wasn't into it, I think he can kind of tell because he he ended it because he was like, I don't think you're into this anymore.

And like I told you, I'm intentional and I want to meet someone.

And I'm like, OK.

Yeah, I think I definitely have in my head a fairy tale fantasy where I'm, like, even if I match with someone on Hinge, I, like, immediately think, like, does he look nice?

Or, like, does he look like he can fit in with my friends and my family?

And it's, like, I just match with him.

Like, I know I definitely need to calm that part down.

Like, I don't know how to, like, I guess casual date.

Like, once I match with someone, my thoughts immediately go to, like,

well, this is it then, like, I like, like, he looks nice, he has, like, his prompts sound like he has good hobbies, like, I'm gonna, like, just put all my eggs in his basket type thing, where, like, I want to be able to casually be like, oh, yeah, I matched someone, go on a couple dates, nothing really comes out of it, and that's fine,

But my headspace going into dates and stuff isn't like that.

And I know that needs to change.

Cause yeah, I think like when I meet like these nice guys and then I don't like them back, like, yeah, I'm so hard on myself.

Like what is wrong with me?