Maddie Alexander Grout

And it wasn't positive at the time.

In fact, it was horrible.

Like my mental health was just like, because people were slating my personality and that felt hard.

um defend yourself yes and and that was as a result of my actions um but it's but it's the same it's like you know if you if you own the things that you do wrong um again i there was another there was another time as well where i just made the biggest boo-boo and i like honestly i felt like i could curl up into a ball and die um i posted about um going to pepper pig world and

And how Peppa Pig World is just like, I think I called her an entitled little pork sword.

which people really thought was funny.

But I said, oh, my kids are too old for Peppa Pig.

And then somebody commented saying, I like going to Peppa Pig World.

I take my 19-year-old.

And I just didn't think.

And I was like, do you mean 19-month-old?

And they were like, no, my 19-year-old who's autistic, who has a massive obsession with Peppa Pig.

And I was like, oh my God, I didn't even think about that.

So again, I did an apology video and I was just like, I'm an autistic person and

I have experience of myself as an autistic person.

I have experience of my children as autistic people, but I don't have experience with autistic teenagers.

And I just didn't think about the fact that actually Peppa Pig for an autistic non-verbal teenager could be a hyper-focus and something that they love.

And I was mortified, but I owned it and I apologise.

And I think that's how you have to play things.

yeah yeah and I think that's that's the thing when when you know what your values are you know what your goals are you know what your mission is you are constantly aligned with that um then if you do make a mistake or if somebody does decide they're going to throw you under the bus or the press put a comment about you that's that's negative or like it's always going to have you know the right people are going to come and find you as long as you deal with it in the right way yeah