Maddie

So by that time I was coming back, I was coming back and it only been five months since I had worked there. But I went in full force. I knew what I needed to do. I knew I was clear-headed. I felt so good. And I did so good. My sales increased from $200,000 to I think whenever I left there, I was selling... 780,000. And that's a month. That's not per year, that's per month.

So I was doing really well. I had all my shit together. I was going to see a therapist, a psychiatrist, and all this other thing. And you were sober at this time, right? I've remained sober since.

So I was doing really well. I had all my shit together. I was going to see a therapist, a psychiatrist, and all this other thing. And you were sober at this time, right? I've remained sober since.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So and that just proves to me that I clearly was done with it. But yeah, since and then I also have that tattooed inside my arm. It says to the girl I once was, I forgive you with my sober date of 10, 22, 21 underneath it. Mm hmm. And that was a sign that was in my therapist's office for behavioral, the rehab that I went to. So that's why I kind of got that tattooed on me.

So and that just proves to me that I clearly was done with it. But yeah, since and then I also have that tattooed inside my arm. It says to the girl I once was, I forgive you with my sober date of 10, 22, 21 underneath it. Mm hmm. And that was a sign that was in my therapist's office for behavioral, the rehab that I went to. So that's why I kind of got that tattooed on me.

But anyways, so I was doing really good. I continued to do really good for about a year. And then I fell into a little bit of like some depression. Yeah. I never experienced it like this before because also I had been drinking since I was 14. Yeah. So I really didn't know how to handle it. I was talking to all my doctors because, again, at this time I was seeing a therapist.

But anyways, so I was doing really good. I continued to do really good for about a year. And then I fell into a little bit of like some depression. Yeah. I never experienced it like this before because also I had been drinking since I was 14. Yeah. So I really didn't know how to handle it. I was talking to all my doctors because, again, at this time I was seeing a therapist.

I was seeing a psychiatrist. And then I was also seeing a doctor. nurse practitioner, and he specialized in addiction and addiction behavior. And so I was getting this shot called... It's this shot. Oh, Vivitrol. I was getting this shot called Vivitrol injected once a month. Why does it sound familiar? So Vivitrol is used for opioid and alcohol addiction. And it is meant to make you...

I was seeing a psychiatrist. And then I was also seeing a doctor. nurse practitioner, and he specialized in addiction and addiction behavior. And so I was getting this shot called... It's this shot. Oh, Vivitrol. I was getting this shot called Vivitrol injected once a month. Why does it sound familiar? So Vivitrol is used for opioid and alcohol addiction. And it is meant to make you...

not as addicted or like it's meant to be kind of like, not kind of like Suboxone, but like, In the same way. Right. Where it doesn't make you like crave it or it doesn't make you. And also, if you drink or do opioids on it, you'll get so sick.

not as addicted or like it's meant to be kind of like, not kind of like Suboxone, but like, In the same way. Right. Where it doesn't make you like crave it or it doesn't make you. And also, if you drink or do opioids on it, you'll get so sick.

So that's another huge return. I was like, bitch, you just got out of going to the hospital for five years. Like, can we please give our body a break? My God. Yeah. So I was getting the Vivitrol injections and then I was also dealing with a lot of depression. And despite him upping my meds, despite everything else, you know, me upping my meds. therapy sessions, nothing was really helping me.

So that's another huge return. I was like, bitch, you just got out of going to the hospital for five years. Like, can we please give our body a break? My God. Yeah. So I was getting the Vivitrol injections and then I was also dealing with a lot of depression. And despite him upping my meds, despite everything else, you know, me upping my meds. therapy sessions, nothing was really helping me.

And so he recommended this treatment called TMS, transcranial magnetic stimulation. And it's really good. It does help people with depression. I do actually recommend it. Okay. But I also... Took that and ran with it like I do everything else. So you're only supposed to have 60 sessions. So you go like once a day and you get the treatment.

And so he recommended this treatment called TMS, transcranial magnetic stimulation. And it's really good. It does help people with depression. I do actually recommend it. Okay. But I also... Took that and ran with it like I do everything else. So you're only supposed to have 60 sessions. So you go like once a day and you get the treatment.

So they put this little device on top of your head and it literally like stimulates portions of your brain that are supposed to like make you happy. Wow, okay. Yeah. And the first treatment- And once a day for 60 days? Yeah. Is that what it is? Okay. And once I did the first treatment, I felt amazing. Like I've never felt this good in my life. I've never been this happy, never been this motivated.