Madison

And then it kind of continued.

And you see, even into episode seven, when he seems to be fine at that point, he's still kind of going in this roundabout type of communication, asking me, like, why are you embarrassed?

Like, why this?

Why that?

And it's like, I have been saying the same thing.

Like, I am repeating myself ad nauseum at this point.

Well, I think to answer that, I have to back it up a little bit because I was hoping at the pool party that, you know, it's our first time as a couple in a group setting.

I was really hoping that he would show up a little bit more for me, maybe a little bit less for Jordan.

But I was hoping that he would show up for me in a way that was consistent with the person that I loved in the pods.

That's what I was mainly hoping.

So I want to say then in the moment of when I woke him up,

I was hoping that we'd have a conversation of how, how'd you think the pool party went?

Like, it was great to see the other couples.

You know, what do you think of so-and-so and so-and-so?

Cause you know, it's our first time seeing the guys and for them seeing us girls.

So I was just hoping to continue the night and continue to develop our relationship.

on a positive level.

You know, I think I wish that

I wish that Joe just would have had more self-awareness through the whole experiment.

And I think that translates into this situation too, where it's, I wish that he would have just seen that from my perspective, we're here together.