Marie

And I was just like, what the hell is wrong with you?

Because again, I was raised very religious and, you know, like I said, just him and previous husbands.

I was always raised that sex equals love.

Right, of course.

My immediate thought was like, why would you want me to do this with anybody else?

Because to me, you're just asking me to try to fall in love with somebody else.

And he's like, whoa, no, that's not at all what I'm talking about.

I'm just talking about physical.

But my mind couldn't like wrap around like,

separating physical from love.

Yeah, yeah.

And that's exactly what it was.

And I think because, you know, since we had been together long enough, you know, 10 years at that point, he knew like, well, of course, you know, he's my world.

I want him involved.

And, you know, like I said, even though with him being in the picture, I just, I wasn't seeing his picture, his vision, you know?

And so it was like, okay, you're sick.

I asked for him to just give me some space with it.

He dropped it.

you know, didn't bring it up for months and months.

And I think he had planted that seed and slowly I started like thinking about it and started going through like different scenarios in my head and whatnot.