Matt Willis

I mean, I kind of... What, hard stuff?

Well, we had hard stuff, but I don't know if I had anyone who showed me how to deal with it.

Like, I was very kind of...

I don't know, I felt like I was always quite on my own in a way.

I wasn't very close to my family, you know.

I suppose we were close most of the time, but it was quite a troubled childhood, so it was kind of quite difficult to kind of... I would never go to them with any problems, you know, or they would never show me any problems, or if it was a row or something, I kind of experienced that, but I never really...

I didn't really have that until I was probably a teenager and I had a friend called Ed.

And Ed's dad, Paul, was this kind of like, I think he had Ed when he was about 16 years old.

And he drove a nice car and he lived in the cool part of town.

And I was like, who the fuck is this guy?

you know like and how is he your dad he looks just a bit older than us you know it was so crazy and um and i admired him so much because he was so open that's usually and he'd ask me and he'd ask me how i was you know and he kind of like and he like you know he'd kind of check in on me a little bit was that the first time in your life you'd experienced that from an adult yeah i think so i really admired him i kind of like and it was the first time anyone had kind of

asked me if I was all right and actually wanted the answer.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

And I didn't answer truthfully, but he kind of left that open so if I ever wanted to, I could.

Are you still in touch with him?

Yeah, all the time.

He was the best man at my wedding.

I love that.

Paul was.

No, no, he's been an amazing, amazing part of my life.