Matt Willis

And so then that sort of brought about where I'd be secretly drinking.

Because I would come back from tours just ruined.

Or even like if I did a show and then come back in the morning, you know when you're just so brutally hungover you can't look after the kids, you know?

And so it became this big source of argument between us so that I ended up doing more secret drinking and just...

you know, pretending I wasn't drinking.

I used to do mad stuff, like fill up, like when we were at home, because she would not want me to drink at home.

So I would make, I'd either make excuses, we had a studio next door, so I'd make excuses to go to the studio, so I had to work, and literally I'd just go to the studio, wait till she went to bed.

A studio is a perfect place for an alcoholic.

It's a dream.

Yeah, it's literally, you lock the door, don't disturb me, I'm recording both acts.

Yeah, and just get absolutely fucked.

And that's what I would do most nights.

I'd wait for her to go to bed, and I'd go to the studio, and then, you know, and that became more and more common, and it became, it almost broke up our marriage.

Understandably, I don't know how she...

how she survived it or why she's still with me because it became such a such a big thing and you know the secret this that's the secrecy that went into it like for about a year or so afterwards i was finding empty bottles which were hidden around the house yeah yeah you know empty bottles of wine or gin or cans you know just didn't draw as you'd be like looking for something and there's like you know four crushed up cans of stella you don't like mad mad stuff yeah

I used to, I would fill up non-alcoholic beer with like normal beer.

That's such a clever thing to do.

I've never heard that story before.

I thought I'd heard them all, but that is really fucking clever.

Aren't we amazing?