Maya Umemoto Gorman

my scam ass fucking college I went to fucking Christian girl autumn ass college where they were coming to the church no I'm going to the church where they're literally gonna work me fucking grind and bone bitch in the name of in the name of who in the name of in the name of in the name of fucking y'all know who y'all are in the name of the Kardashians that they were hosting and Justin Bieber and Hailey I don't want to go there but one day we will um

With that being said, I like had my first like, you know, burnout, bad burnout.

But I will say when I started doing social media full time, I experienced like a longer term depression.

I think also, too, when you get into your like mid like early mid 20s.

your body changes a lot bro like your hormones change so fucking much like my hormones change so much and like that's when like my pmdd like i mean i've always had pmdd but it was like really fucking ramped up um and also just i mean so many things this job is like

though I'm not doing extraneous labor, but to be in this industry, mentally, it's a lot.

And then it's just when other shit outside of work is happening,

Wishing I could hold on to this feeling.

I feel like the first time I ever went to therapy for my depression, because I did a couple different therapies before.

I'm in talk therapy now, but I did- Love, love talk therapy.

I always want to say CBD.

EMDR?

No.

CBT which is like about I think CBT is really fucking like it was so beneficial usually it's like kind of like course like you don't it's like you maybe do it for like six months or so but it's like habit building and yeah yeah but it really on the habit building it really helps with like you with people who like have like high functioning like depression and stuff which is like what I was really oh my god really fucking struggling with and like still do sometimes but like

But it's a lot of things, too.

And I think like the biggest thing that like no one talks about is it just truly is a disability.

Like you wouldn't look at someone with a broken leg and be like, bitch, walk on it.

Yeah.

You know what I mean?

Like you want to be like, girl, walk on that shit.