Meagan

And I just love that picture so much.

They all sat on the very front row.

And I got my RN and it was just so amazing.

I love that moment so much.

I love it.

So I had finished nursing school and I thought that in that moment that

That is one big stressor out of my life.

This is going to go away because in all of this time, I was still, we were sleeping on the couch.

I wasn't throwing away diapers.

I had started bathing and taking care of myself better, obviously, because that could not go on.

I did realize very early on that was not going to be okay.

So I did start taking care of myself a lot better, but

mine and my husband's relationship started to become toxic again because he has told me since that he thought that what was wrong with me was him and so he stopped coming home at night he was sleeping on the couch like he would come home sleep on the couch at this point after i finished school we had moved back into the bedroom and so

I felt like things were getting better.

It's going to be fine.

But we started becoming really toxic again.

And he blames himself a lot because he figured I was sad because of something he was doing.

I just didn't like him.

And so he just didn't treat me very well.

And he'll tell you that himself that he just didn't, wasn't doing good.