Meagan

And they just kind of, there's like a list.

They'll usually start everyone off on certain things and you'll escalate from there.

So I started with the Zoloft 25 and I was like, okay.

Perfect.

I've got meds.

Because I also knew that me and my husband were going to divorce.

And I wanted to be able, like right here to this day, I wanted to be able to look in the mirror and tell myself that you did everything that you could.

You tried to seek help.

You did not just leave in a fit of rage one day and not look back.

Like you did try.

You tried everything.

Because my baby now is not in a...

home with her mommy and her daddy and I wanted to be able to tell her that I really tried I did not want it to be this way I tried so hard I was sick and that medicine didn't really work it just had side effects and so I went back and they doubled that medicine and added something else

And they told me to just take two or three of the medicine, the more for anxiety.

It's called hydroxyzine.

And it's kind of like, it's kind of like Benadryl too, because it's,

for itching as well.

So they were like, just take two or three of those if you're having like a anxiety attack or something.

So I was like, okay, I will.

And so I had gone to my mom's that afternoon and I took three of those hydroxyzine.