Meggan Roxanne

And you talk about them in the book as well, some of your tools.

And you talk about them in the book as well, some of your tools.

It wasn't just my mother I lost. So I lost my mother in 2021 in March. I started to lose people around August 2020. Well, I lost 16 people to COVID, right? I lost 16 people to COVID and I lost three friends, one to cocaine.

It wasn't just my mother I lost. So I lost my mother in 2021 in March. I started to lose people around August 2020. Well, I lost 16 people to COVID, right? I lost 16 people to COVID and I lost three friends, one to cocaine.

one to murder and one to illness i lost both my parents my mother passed in march my dad passed in august and then i lost an uncle later on that year so that all happened in the space of 2020 to 2021 so it wasn't just losing my mum um never met my dad never knew my dad not interested It was actually losing my entire community. All my elders went. Millie's actually the only elder I have left.

one to murder and one to illness i lost both my parents my mother passed in march my dad passed in august and then i lost an uncle later on that year so that all happened in the space of 2020 to 2021 so it wasn't just losing my mum um never met my dad never knew my dad not interested It was actually losing my entire community. All my elders went. Millie's actually the only elder I have left.

And it was very important for me to get her name in print and share her story as well as my mum. The journey of my mother's transition started in July 2020 when she got diagnosed with stage four cancer. And at that moment, Jay, I was in the position of putting my face in my pants, like actually doing it. Sat down with my business partner, like, this is what we're doing. I'm ready, you know?

And it was very important for me to get her name in print and share her story as well as my mum. The journey of my mother's transition started in July 2020 when she got diagnosed with stage four cancer. And at that moment, Jay, I was in the position of putting my face in my pants, like actually doing it. Sat down with my business partner, like, this is what we're doing. I'm ready, you know?

And that happened. And I thought, oh my gosh, this is happening again. This happened with Tumblr. Okay, well, maybe it's not time, you know? So I just saw that as a huge step back for me to take because this is more important and this is where... my life is heading towards. I then had to become a carer and there were many times I had to parent my mum.

And that happened. And I thought, oh my gosh, this is happening again. This happened with Tumblr. Okay, well, maybe it's not time, you know? So I just saw that as a huge step back for me to take because this is more important and this is where... my life is heading towards. I then had to become a carer and there were many times I had to parent my mum.

Immediately as she got diagnosed, I then had to put my feelings aside and comfort her and then become very optimistic for our journey moving forward. And it was heartbreaking because all while that was happening, I was watching you know, the energy deplete from somebody who's being told that in a couple of years time, they might not be here. Then I'm thinking, okay, wow.

Immediately as she got diagnosed, I then had to put my feelings aside and comfort her and then become very optimistic for our journey moving forward. And it was heartbreaking because all while that was happening, I was watching you know, the energy deplete from somebody who's being told that in a couple of years time, they might not be here. Then I'm thinking, okay, wow.

In a couple of years, my mom's going to die when I'm 30, my 30s. I thought she was, I thought I had a pact with God that mommy's not going until she's a hundred, you know, like what are we doing? What are we talking about? Okay. So stage four cancer, these are all the things that was in my head. Okay. Let me research them. And I'm seeing there's not many, there's, there's,

In a couple of years, my mom's going to die when I'm 30, my 30s. I thought she was, I thought I had a pact with God that mommy's not going until she's a hundred, you know, like what are we doing? What are we talking about? Okay. So stage four cancer, these are all the things that was in my head. Okay. Let me research them. And I'm seeing there's not many, there's, there's,

It's terminal, you know, and that's literally what the doctor told my mother. So it was, it was really hard. I knew that I didn't have time to be depressed, you know, because depression is the first thing that comes to me when emotions are too heavy. I just, I stop, I pause, I bed rot. And, you know, I didn't have time for that because I have to go back to caring now.

It's terminal, you know, and that's literally what the doctor told my mother. So it was, it was really hard. I knew that I didn't have time to be depressed, you know, because depression is the first thing that comes to me when emotions are too heavy. I just, I stop, I pause, I bed rot. And, you know, I didn't have time for that because I have to go back to caring now.

Every night I would cry myself to sleep and then I would watch some people on TikTok who talk about grief. There's a lady who talks about working in a hospice and I just realised, OK, I'm being called to help my mother transition. So I actually need to put myself second. And I did the entire time. It's hard operating with a broken heart.

Every night I would cry myself to sleep and then I would watch some people on TikTok who talk about grief. There's a lady who talks about working in a hospice and I just realised, OK, I'm being called to help my mother transition. So I actually need to put myself second. And I did the entire time. It's hard operating with a broken heart.

It's hard watching the person that you love crumble and lose their power, eventually losing their life. You lose yourself. The moment my mother took her last breath, I also took my last breath. And I felt, you see that same feeling that I spoke about in the beginning of the book with the heartbreak, I felt something leave me. I felt so cold and hollow.

It's hard watching the person that you love crumble and lose their power, eventually losing their life. You lose yourself. The moment my mother took her last breath, I also took my last breath. And I felt, you see that same feeling that I spoke about in the beginning of the book with the heartbreak, I felt something leave me. I felt so cold and hollow.