Meggan Roxanne

That's the best way I could... Everything within me that was fun and brought light and the things that everybody loved, it went... My entire essence left with my mother. It's only till I got older, along the last couple of years, I've realised actually... I just evolved. And the best inheritance I received was my mother's love and her essence. But that feeling was awful. I didn't want to be here.

That's the best way I could... Everything within me that was fun and brought light and the things that everybody loved, it went... My entire essence left with my mother. It's only till I got older, along the last couple of years, I've realised actually... I just evolved. And the best inheritance I received was my mother's love and her essence. But that feeling was awful. I didn't want to be here.

Went through so many different things, so many different emotions. You know, my mother... got ill just as COVID started to happen and it got really cold. And she was like, I want to go home and home for us is Trinidad. But Trinidad's borders were closed. So I ended up going to St. Lucia and it was just supposed to be a quick break and maybe a month or so, you know.

Went through so many different things, so many different emotions. You know, my mother... got ill just as COVID started to happen and it got really cold. And she was like, I want to go home and home for us is Trinidad. But Trinidad's borders were closed. So I ended up going to St. Lucia and it was just supposed to be a quick break and maybe a month or so, you know.

And it was crazy because COVID out there was so different to the UK. Like you could still go to the beach. You could still do things. So my mum was... She was really happy, you know, it's hot, it's sunshine, you can eat the best foods, you know. We had her on a really holistic whole foods diet and all of the stuff came from St. Lucia. So it was just literally eating from the ground.

And it was crazy because COVID out there was so different to the UK. Like you could still go to the beach. You could still do things. So my mum was... She was really happy, you know, it's hot, it's sunshine, you can eat the best foods, you know. We had her on a really holistic whole foods diet and all of the stuff came from St. Lucia. So it was just literally eating from the ground.

And at one stage I thought she was getting better and then her health just plummeted. And next thing you know, I'm in St. Lucia for six months and my mother passes away. And I then had to... okay, she wants to be buried in Trinidad. What do I do now? So my grandfather sent me 10,000 pounds and all the planes were stationary. All the airports were closed.

And at one stage I thought she was getting better and then her health just plummeted. And next thing you know, I'm in St. Lucia for six months and my mother passes away. And I then had to... okay, she wants to be buried in Trinidad. What do I do now? So my grandfather sent me 10,000 pounds and all the planes were stationary. All the airports were closed.

I had to spend about two weeks begging the ministry in Trinidad to let me in. And when I was able to send them all of my mom's documentations, she was a national, they brought her home. And they were at one stage, they were like, we can't bring you into the country because you're not a national. And And I was just like, okay, well, I'm going to go on the good quote and talk about this.

I had to spend about two weeks begging the ministry in Trinidad to let me in. And when I was able to send them all of my mom's documentations, she was a national, they brought her home. And they were at one stage, they were like, we can't bring you into the country because you're not a national. And And I was just like, okay, well, I'm going to go on the good quote and talk about this.

And literally the next day I woke up to access into Trinidad, put my mother on this private plane that my grandfather played for, got over to Trinidad. Had to quarantine. I didn't bury her until a month later. Family switched up on me by myself in a foreign country. Trinidad is not an easy place to be on the best of days. I love Trinidad. I love it. I was raised to love Trinidad.

And literally the next day I woke up to access into Trinidad, put my mother on this private plane that my grandfather played for, got over to Trinidad. Had to quarantine. I didn't bury her until a month later. Family switched up on me by myself in a foreign country. Trinidad is not an easy place to be on the best of days. I love Trinidad. I love it. I was raised to love Trinidad.

It's part of, it's me, you know, been going to Trinidad since I was seven years old. So I kind of know the area. No, when you're there by yourself, no family, no money, your mother's in a morgue, you know, I had a breakdown. I completely broke down to the point where I think I landed in St.

It's part of, it's me, you know, been going to Trinidad since I was seven years old. So I kind of know the area. No, when you're there by yourself, no family, no money, your mother's in a morgue, you know, I had a breakdown. I completely broke down to the point where I think I landed in St.

Lucia, maybe 110 kg, because when I'm stressed, as you can see, just finished writing the book, but when I'm stressed, I put on a lot of weight. I left and landed in Trinidad at 74 kg. I lost so much weight due to stress. It depleted me completely, but I did it all with honour because that was my best friend. She was scared and I was scared and...

Lucia, maybe 110 kg, because when I'm stressed, as you can see, just finished writing the book, but when I'm stressed, I put on a lot of weight. I left and landed in Trinidad at 74 kg. I lost so much weight due to stress. It depleted me completely, but I did it all with honour because that was my best friend. She was scared and I was scared and...

I needed to ensure that she had everything that she needed because at one stage that's what she did for me. You know, I slept in the hospital the entire time. I actually got all the nurses to sign off their responsibilities. I washed my mum. I fed her. I creamed her. I helped her move. I changed her bed. I did everything because for me, it was the last time I was ever going to be able to do it.

I needed to ensure that she had everything that she needed because at one stage that's what she did for me. You know, I slept in the hospital the entire time. I actually got all the nurses to sign off their responsibilities. I washed my mum. I fed her. I creamed her. I helped her move. I changed her bed. I did everything because for me, it was the last time I was ever going to be able to do it.

So I had all this energy to do it. And honor is such a big thing for me and so is loyalty. And because of my mother's story and the amount of sacrifices she made for me, it was important for me to reciprocate in the only way that I knew how at the time, which was to ensure that she had a peaceful transition. And it was so hard.

So I had all this energy to do it. And honor is such a big thing for me and so is loyalty. And because of my mother's story and the amount of sacrifices she made for me, it was important for me to reciprocate in the only way that I knew how at the time, which was to ensure that she had a peaceful transition. And it was so hard.