Melissa Wood-Tepperberg

Yes. But I now know how to get myself out. And it's just, it's, I think when it's so embedded in your nervous system, It takes so much time to get yourself out of that place. And I know now, I know when I'm bringing it. I know when I'm being self-destructive. And I'm definitely so far from that part of me, but she's in there, let me tell you. And I have great access to her if I need her.

Yes. But I now know how to get myself out. And it's just, it's, I think when it's so embedded in your nervous system, It takes so much time to get yourself out of that place. And I know now, I know when I'm bringing it. I know when I'm being self-destructive. And I'm definitely so far from that part of me, but she's in there, let me tell you. And I have great access to her if I need her.

But, which is also, a good thing, which I've learned to really embrace and love and be like, you are one fiery pistol. God knows if we need it, it's there and the access is quick. But I'm just being honest. I mean, you know,

But, which is also, a good thing, which I've learned to really embrace and love and be like, you are one fiery pistol. God knows if we need it, it's there and the access is quick. But I'm just being honest. I mean, you know,

It's like the overwhelm. It's just like, oh, my God. It's that immediate almost like being on that wheel of anxiety. But I step off now. And I'm like, no, no, you know, and this is where I've cultivated this practice and this connection with source and knowing that I can connect at any moment in any time. And that is what.

It's like the overwhelm. It's just like, oh, my God. It's that immediate almost like being on that wheel of anxiety. But I step off now. And I'm like, no, no, you know, and this is where I've cultivated this practice and this connection with source and knowing that I can connect at any moment in any time. And that is what.

helps me see like the light of day and i you know i shared this once on i was doing a q a and i shared this and it was like the most viewed thing i had and i realized that There is still that part of me, right, that wants to, like, make things look really pretty with a bow. And, of course, I've cracked myself open. But there's still so much.

helps me see like the light of day and i you know i shared this once on i was doing a q a and i shared this and it was like the most viewed thing i had and i realized that There is still that part of me, right, that wants to, like, make things look really pretty with a bow. And, of course, I've cracked myself open. But there's still so much.

And I think that is where I'm at right now today where I'm, like – I am so done just like ripping off these masks and really just being so radically transparent with myself, but also with people who are ready to do it for themselves too. Because it's not just for me and I think that's where this work has fueled something in me that I've always known was in there since I was a little girl, but it's

And I think that is where I'm at right now today where I'm, like – I am so done just like ripping off these masks and really just being so radically transparent with myself, but also with people who are ready to do it for themselves too. Because it's not just for me and I think that's where this work has fueled something in me that I've always known was in there since I was a little girl, but it's

It's this choice every single day, like to this day. It's like I'm choosing, I'm choosing to stay devoted to myself.

It's this choice every single day, like to this day. It's like I'm choosing, I'm choosing to stay devoted to myself.

So instead of like, for me, instead of focusing on removing one thing that really helped me when I was in it, and still when I feel overwhelmed, it's like, what can I add in to help like make me feel just an ounce more at ease. And when my therapist started really calling me out on things, then it was like, okay, I can't even lie to her. Like, I just have to be honest.

So instead of like, for me, instead of focusing on removing one thing that really helped me when I was in it, and still when I feel overwhelmed, it's like, what can I add in to help like make me feel just an ounce more at ease. And when my therapist started really calling me out on things, then it was like, okay, I can't even lie to her. Like, I just have to be honest.

So it was like, that schtick was old. I couldn't do that anymore. But then I was finding, I was feeling this, like, I need to be told. Like I need to be told what to do. So I started seeing a health coach and I remember the first time I walked in and I was like, okay, give me the diet. I was in that mindset of like, tell me the thing, I'll do it and then I'll see results.

So it was like, that schtick was old. I couldn't do that anymore. But then I was finding, I was feeling this, like, I need to be told. Like I need to be told what to do. So I started seeing a health coach and I remember the first time I walked in and I was like, okay, give me the diet. I was in that mindset of like, tell me the thing, I'll do it and then I'll see results.

And I was trying to lose weight because I wanted to be a model. And at this point I had gotten signed by a top agency, but it was like, I lost like 15 pounds.

And I was trying to lose weight because I wanted to be a model. And at this point I had gotten signed by a top agency, but it was like, I lost like 15 pounds.

And I lost 15 pounds and then it was just this long road of torture because I thought that I was very into fitness and very into wellness, but my relationship to myself was still so disconnected that I was looking outside of myself for all of the resources. So I was taking what a trainer would tell me to do. You needed to do 45 minutes of cardio and then

And I lost 15 pounds and then it was just this long road of torture because I thought that I was very into fitness and very into wellness, but my relationship to myself was still so disconnected that I was looking outside of myself for all of the resources. So I was taking what a trainer would tell me to do. You needed to do 45 minutes of cardio and then