Michael Landsberg

Now, when I say I hated everything about my life, it's how I related to my life.

And it was, it was so obvious to me that it was on my face, right?

Like I would do a show and I would think, oh my God, people are going to call ambulances.

They're going to, you know, like let's get Landsberg some help.

Not one show.

did anyone actually ever say to me, are you okay?

Not one.

And in 2008, this is kind of like, I have this tattoo on my arm, 11-24-08-Y-U-L-M-H-5-2-1-0-4-0-0.

November 24th, 2008, YUL is the Montreal airport code, Marriott Hotel Room 521, 4 a.m.

We were there shooting off the record at the Grey Cup.

And I sat on the edge of my bed and I thought,

I understand why people take their own lives.

It was like I was in so much pain.

It wasn't that I didn't love my wife and my kids and my parents at the time and didn't love my job.

Like all of that was like, check them off.

I was, you know, I was so blessed, but I was in so much pain at that point.

that I was way more afraid of having to try to live with that pain the next day than I was of dying.

And that taught me so much.

And the next day when we did the show, no one said to me like,

You're okay.