Michelle Ryan

He's missed, he's missed just every day of life, really, because like,

it should be his life, you know what I mean, as well.

So, like, when he lost his life, essentially, it was like, you know, they say the way twins have a bond, and this is going to be an unreal way to explain it, but they say twins have a bond.

They feel what each other is feeling.

So, like, when Daddy lost his life, 90% of me went with him.

I was left with the 10% to drag myself through.

You know, that kind of thing.

It was like trying to learn how to walk again.

Like at 24 years of age, the person I knew went in a matter of hours.

And no matter what way I try and think back on it, I never actually, I don't know what it feels like to be normal anymore, even though I'm living my new normal, but I know it's not the person that I was beforehand.

Patrick Quirk says,

murdered him and was found guilty of his murder and people will remember different aspects of the trial.

How was that for you, actually, the spectacle that the trial became?

Oh, God.

Like, me, Steph and Robert, we couldn't...

We were there like, is this normal?

Is this what goes on in courtrooms like this?

Because I remember like they're coming onto the end of daddy's trial.

Like there was people bringing their own, you know, them pull out, them pull out stools that you can get for, we say, you can get them in Aldi's or like, they're little pull out stools or light little things.

People were arriving into the back of the courtroom with their own chairs.