Mike Glover

And months prior to that, before all this had happened, I had brought their classes, their,

gingerbread houses that they won in a contest.

I bought them in an auction for the kids because I wanted them to bring them back to their individual classrooms, both of my kids, they're twins, to their individual classrooms because I wanted the kids to be able to eat the gingerbread cookies after the thing.

And so I'm back in the classroom that I was just in four months prior over the Christmas holidays, giving their gingerbread houses back, and I hear my kids.

and everybody gets quiet and I hear them coming down the hallway and their mom's with them and I get scared because I know that their mom is gonna come down and if she sees me, I'm gonna get in trouble.

And so I hear her voice fade away and my kids come into the classroom, they see me and they, like they always do, you've seen it yourself, they run towards me and they say, daddy, and they gave me an embrace.

As soon as they hugged me,

my I started weeping I started crying and As I'm coming I'm waking myself out of this lucid dream and I don't want to I want to go back to it But as soon as I wake up, I'm crying in the dream and I'm crying lucidly in real life.

I realized that full circle that all of this was a for a very specific reason and at that moment

Before I had gone into that dream, I had let go.

Because, bro, I want the control.

And I'm a control freak.

And it's the worst part of my character, my personality, is I've always been in control.

And the points in my life that have led to catastrophe are when I wanted the most control.

And then when I couldn't have it, I acted like a baby and I lost it.

I got angry.

I got frustrated.

I destroyed relationships.

And for the first time in my life, I relinquished control and realized I'm not in charge.

This isn't up to me.