Miranda July

I think I was catching myself around this time. I kept sort of noticing what I was thinking about older women and noticing the way that I might dismiss someone or... Or not give them sort of the full benefit of an interior life or an erotic life or think of them as like a sad character kind of for no reason, right? Like this is just like someone I'm seeing in passing and

I think I was catching myself around this time. I kept sort of noticing what I was thinking about older women and noticing the way that I might dismiss someone or... Or not give them sort of the full benefit of an interior life or an erotic life or think of them as like a sad character kind of for no reason, right? Like this is just like someone I'm seeing in passing and

By the time I was writing the book, I was aware, like, oh, that fear or hatred of older women is, of course, self-hatred, you know, because I will become that. And to some degree, I already am that to people younger than me. You know, so it's like a kind of slippery zone.

By the time I was writing the book, I was aware, like, oh, that fear or hatred of older women is, of course, self-hatred, you know, because I will become that. And to some degree, I already am that to people younger than me. You know, so it's like a kind of slippery zone.

By the time I was writing the book, I was aware, like, oh, that fear or hatred of older women is, of course, self-hatred, you know, because I will become that. And to some degree, I already am that to people younger than me. You know, so it's like a kind of slippery zone.

Well, I had a different experience from the narrator. I actually had this amazing doctor, Dr. Maggie Ney, who started talking with me about it in my early 40s. I may have been just 40. And she's like, look, we're going to take your blood. and see where your hormone levels are at.

Well, I had a different experience from the narrator. I actually had this amazing doctor, Dr. Maggie Ney, who started talking with me about it in my early 40s. I may have been just 40. And she's like, look, we're going to take your blood. and see where your hormone levels are at.

Well, I had a different experience from the narrator. I actually had this amazing doctor, Dr. Maggie Ney, who started talking with me about it in my early 40s. I may have been just 40. And she's like, look, we're going to take your blood. and see where your hormone levels are at.

And that's just to get a baseline so that as you get older and your hormone levels drop, we'll kind of understand the speed at which that's happening and when you might want to do bioidentical hormones if you want that. And I always remember at the end of describing all this, which was a longer conversation, she said, I'm so excited for you. And she didn't mean that, like, as a joke.

And that's just to get a baseline so that as you get older and your hormone levels drop, we'll kind of understand the speed at which that's happening and when you might want to do bioidentical hormones if you want that. And I always remember at the end of describing all this, which was a longer conversation, she said, I'm so excited for you. And she didn't mean that, like, as a joke.

And that's just to get a baseline so that as you get older and your hormone levels drop, we'll kind of understand the speed at which that's happening and when you might want to do bioidentical hormones if you want that. And I always remember at the end of describing all this, which was a longer conversation, she said, I'm so excited for you. And she didn't mean that, like, as a joke.

And I, not knowing anything else about this, never having had a conversation about it in any other time in my life, not having had a conversation about it ever before with anyone, I just smiled. I just dumbly smiled and was like, huh, yeah. You never know what's coming next, you know? Like, this is exciting. Like, go from ballet slippers to pointe shoes, you know? Like, it's always something.

And I, not knowing anything else about this, never having had a conversation about it in any other time in my life, not having had a conversation about it ever before with anyone, I just smiled. I just dumbly smiled and was like, huh, yeah. You never know what's coming next, you know? Like, this is exciting. Like, go from ballet slippers to pointe shoes, you know? Like, it's always something.

And I, not knowing anything else about this, never having had a conversation about it in any other time in my life, not having had a conversation about it ever before with anyone, I just smiled. I just dumbly smiled and was like, huh, yeah. You never know what's coming next, you know? Like, this is exciting. Like, go from ballet slippers to pointe shoes, you know? Like, it's always something.

I don't know. It didn't seem inherently bad. But then, you know, as I would talk to my friends, I was like the only one who knew anything.

I don't know. It didn't seem inherently bad. But then, you know, as I would talk to my friends, I was like the only one who knew anything.

I don't know. It didn't seem inherently bad. But then, you know, as I would talk to my friends, I was like the only one who knew anything.

Yeah, I mean, my changing life moment, it wasn't like I alone in my head was coming up with that I had to do this. It was like an ongoing conversation with my husband at the time. And very slow, and we both... I think as much as we didn't want to traumatize our kid, we also didn't want to traumatize ourselves. And we were very attached to ourself and the triangle of our family.

Yeah, I mean, my changing life moment, it wasn't like I alone in my head was coming up with that I had to do this. It was like an ongoing conversation with my husband at the time. And very slow, and we both... I think as much as we didn't want to traumatize our kid, we also didn't want to traumatize ourselves. And we were very attached to ourself and the triangle of our family.

Yeah, I mean, my changing life moment, it wasn't like I alone in my head was coming up with that I had to do this. It was like an ongoing conversation with my husband at the time. And very slow, and we both... I think as much as we didn't want to traumatize our kid, we also didn't want to traumatize ourselves. And we were very attached to ourself and the triangle of our family.