Moana Hope

That was a very, that was a book written from love that I thought was love.

And that's okay.

And to be honest, it wasn't until I was with my ex-wife and we were having this deep chat probably a year after we met and I started talking about my childhood that she had said to me,

Mo, I just want you to know that those things that happened to you are not actually normal because I thought my whole life it was normal.

And what kind of person was he?

If you've read the book, what I'm about to say will probably surprise you or shock you.

My kids don't even know that man existed once I had processed what happened to me as a child because I grew up in a household full of domestic violence and abuse and emotional abuse.

And what I'd been through and what had happened to me and what I watched happen to my mother, I think if you made a movie about it, you'd have to call it a horror.

I think for me as a kid, I protected that little girl and that was me.

And I did everything I could to move forward.

And not processing it because I just thought it happened to everybody.

I just shared the things that happened to me as a kid.

I was just like, you know, when we were kids in those bunk beds, I remember there was nights that my dad would come home and he had this thing called, he had two things.

He had one, and this might be true for some people, but he had something that was like, it was wrapped around a horse's belly, a belt, and it's just really thick and really wide.

And then he also had this really, this hose, this really thick hose.

It's not like a normal hose.

It was more like a pipe.

And he would just beat us in our sleep.

So he would come into our room.

We'd be sleeping.