Murugiah

I don't know.

My approach to the word, clearly, I think this junction where you decide to not stick to the one road and you go to another.

Cheesy as it sounds, I think it comes from my love of American pop punk music.

Music that is deeply rooted in

suburban boredom and kind of like an FU attitude, a teenage angst.

I still haven't grown out of that.

So maybe that's what's the actual thread of why I'm doing what I'm doing.

The privilege to wake up in the morning, spend a few hours painting, and then go for an hour's walk in the sunshine and not have to answer to anybody, and then to come back and write emails.

I don't know if everybody's built for this life.

Some people like to go to work and they like to compartmentalize as the thing that they do to earn their living.

And I just never could do that.

A lot of your friends around you are having children and you are at this junction, another junction of deciding, do you have children?

Do you pursue not having children and just enjoying your life in a different way?

It started me down the train of thought of all of this work that I've done, all of this enjoyment that I've had at work.

Is that it?

Is that all that this life is?

I've got to live my dream.

I get to go back mentally to the lonely little kid in the art room at school when everyone else was playing outside.

I was sat in the art room because that's where I felt comfortable.

I get to go back and tell that kid, hey, you've done it.