Nadia

What are the barriers?

It's not easy, to be honest.

Yeah.

It's not easy to, like, look at your shadows.

And, you know, I was a very reactive parent.

I was not used to...

mum, you know, being a mum, having a husband, like I wasn't brought up in a family with two parents, you know, we could make a mess, we could kick a ball around the house, we could make noise.

It was an absolute no.

And we didn't feel safe being, you know, like I couldn't say, oh, shut up, mum, or whatever, like have my emotions.

And

got these two boys this husband all they do is make a mess all they do is make noise all they do is scream and shout and it's like total chaos and my nervous system is like danger danger danger and i'm screaming and shouting and he would you know like they'd be play fighting i'd be like can you stop i can't stand the noise and he's like oh my god such a fun sucking hoover

But it made me look at it like, why am I like that?

What is it with me?

And it was through my trauma training.

And my teacher said to me, it's your nervous system not feeling safe in that because it doesn't know that.

So every time you come in the house and you feel that.

Yes.

Like the shoes are everywhere.

I'm literally about to start screaming and losing my shit.

You have to have that moment to go.