Nadia

that's how i want to feel i want to feel myself like how i feel with my sister with my girlfriends and so again that was the glimmer it was a feeling that i recognized it felt good it felt good to be me and i didn't have to pretend or do a show or you know as kids it was like oh please love me here's a show for you you know if i just did that enough you'll love me more but

But it is a way to get love when you're young.

And so anyway, I remembered the feeling and I thought, oh, if I was ever to be in a relationship, that's how I would like to feel.

And then it cut to a few years later.

And, you know, it's been five years.

Wow.

Congratulations.

Thank you.

And it's a funny one because...

It's one of those things where I didn't want to talk about it a lot in the book.

And I didn't want people to be like, well, it's all right for you kind of thing.

But no one knew that.

that it was really hard for a really long time.

And there were lots of Christmases and New Years and birthdays that I was totally on my own.

I mean, with friends and whatever, but I didn't have a person when everyone else was having kids and doing all that stuff.

And so I kind of, I mean, maybe this is just for us, but I feel like if I can do it, anyone can do it.

That's a very strong message.

And it was, you know, it did happen late and I'm really glad it did because I feel like I was very reactionary when I was young and I was insecure and I didn't understand what love was when I was young, you know.

And so I did need a lot more in a needy kind of a way.

And now it just, I felt like I got to a place where I was like,