Nala Ray
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first heard Nov 2024
last heard Nov 2024
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Me personally, I wish they would have stayed divorced. I feel like they weren't really meant to be together. That's great that you popped out five kids, but after that, what about us? What about our mental health? What about our lives? We were just shoved into the church and expected to do things.
for them you know like little workers you know instead of actually wanting to be there and like they didn't really care about our spirituality like they never checked in on us about how we're feeling or if we had questions it was just show up you know what i'm saying and it sucked it really sucked whoa so
Absolutely. Because I'm like, if this is Christianity, if this is what it's like having a relationship with God, I don't see the benefit in it. Like, what is what is God doing for us? Like when our family's crumbling, you know, and then we just keep getting excluded from church after church. So I'm like, so why aren't we welcomed anywhere? Why does that being in my own home not feel welcoming?
You know, so I'm like, I just want to leave. You know, so I started working at 15, started working so many hours and just trying to get a car. You know, so I bought my first truck and I was like, yes, I have some freedom. But then even that, like my parents were like, you have to be home in a certain time, which is a very normal parenting tactic, you know, giving your child like curfews.
But even so, like that, like want to leave just kept growing and growing and growing. So at like 17, I started like sneaking out of my house at night, like like super early in the morning, like 2 a.m. and coming back at like 5 a.m. and just like meeting boys or trying to meet people because I felt so sheltered, like I'm not meeting anybody but church people, you know what I'm saying?
And I was just like, dude, I don't even feel like I get to be a kid. I just have to meet with old adults at church and that's it. You know what I'm saying? It just felt like My life sucked. That's what it felt like as a teenager. I don't, I don't even feel like I had a teenage years or even like a kid years. You know what I'm saying?
It feels like it all left and it went by so fast and I don't know. I just, I wish it was different, you know, so badly.
I feel that way with my parents a lot. Like, you know, if, if my dad wanted to cheat it on my mom, kind of like that hurt wouldn't have never been there to, for, to begin with and like fester it really, like they didn't receive healing from that experience. So it really carried on throughout their marriage. And so I'm like, dang, if he would have never done that to, to like our family and left.
Cause like when you're a kid and you're one of your parents leaves, like is no longer present in the home. it damages you so much because like you're missing that other half, that other half that's supposed to be helping you in life. And then you now feel kind of like you're on your own.
And that's like, it's like a really scary position to be in as a kid because you just have so many questions and you want love. Like as a kid, like that's a really, all you want is your love from your parents and, But then my mom went through a really big like depression stage like while I was homeschooled and would just like stay in her room for days on end.
And if she did come out, she was just like looked like she'd been crying, hasn't been eating kind of thing. And then like you're just like, oh, what do we do now? Like you're my teacher, too. Like I need help on schoolwork, you know.
I mean, I'd say I was a little bit more after my dad came back. I wanted to build that relationship with my dad again. I missed him so much. And then like we did kind of have a better relationship than with when I did like with my mom. My mom and I haven't really ever had a good relationship, which I do hope it changes.
But my dad and I got pretty close, more so in my 20s, like when I started OnlyFans.
I did. Yeah. I wanted to be a dental hygienist.
SCF in Florida. So yeah, they had like three locations.
Well, I went for two years. Um, yeah. So, but then I just didn't complete my major. I dropped out because I got a job in orthopedics and I, I really liked the medical field. So I was like, cool. I have my big girl job. I have benefits. Like I don't really need to continue in college.
Like I, cause I was full time in college and that was so much work and I was paying for college out of my own pocket. It was very expensive. So I was like, well, if I want to go get my own place, um, I need to quit college and I just need to work full time. So I did that and I felt a lot of freedom in that. Like I finally got my first apartment.
Right.
I don't need to go to college anymore.
Like pretty decent, like 3,500 a month.
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