Natalie Ellis

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595 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard Jul 2026 last heard 7 Jul

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Healing + Human Potential · How to Be Ambitious Without Losing Your Relationships · 7 Jul 2026 podcast

And I think you have to know who you can and can't have certain conversations with.

And if you feel like,

It does, and it's painful on the other side of it when you take a look at that and you realize, for me, I just realized I had self-abandoned in so many different areas of my life in pursuit of being a great friend or a good person or keeping the peace or making people happy.

I had just self-abandoned in so many different areas to a point I didn't know what I wanted, who I was at my core.

I was just parts of lots of other people

And their vision for me or their vision for their life and how I could play a part in that.

And I was just giving so many pieces of myself away.

And I went through a full dark night of the soul that lasted many, many, many nights where I had to really come back to myself and start to understand who I was, what I valued, what I cared about, what I wanted.

But I'd self-abandoned for so many years.

That was a really hard thing to even understand what I wanted anymore.

Yeah, I was parentified child too.

I was the eldest of eight.

And from a very young age, I learned to read the temperature of a room.

And I would behave in certain ways to make sure there was not big emotional reactions.

When there was a big emotional reaction happening in my house, I would be the easy one or I would be the one that makes everything okay.

You know, I grew up in a house with a lot of domestic violence and substance abuse.

And when that was going on, I would try and get in the middle and make things okay.

I would be the one calling the cops, calling the ambulance, taking my siblings away and putting them in a different room and making sure they didn't know what was going on.

I was always the one taking on everything that was happening at home and then showing up at school the next day as if nothing happened.

And just from a very young age, I abandoned myself.

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