Natasha

But, you know, it's toxic positivity.

Yeah.

But it really is genuinely true that like.

The whole idea of just like, well, count your blessings can be used as this very dismissive sort of, it could be worse.

But there are genuinely times where I have to stop and be like, actually, a lot in my life is great.

And I need to not start going down this road of naming every single thing that has gone wrong or could go bad or things that haven't even happened yet that I'm just fixated on as if they are about to occur.

It's really an easy cycle to get into, especially...

When it feels like things have just gotten worse on a worldwide scale over the course of years, which is true, but I can acknowledge that and also be like, but in my sphere, my little world.

I'm okay on a lot of levels and there's also guilt that comes with that, of course, you know, but everything has its, its other edge and it, it can really depend on like, okay, so something has two edges.

How are you going to hold onto it?

Are you just going to grip both sides and squeeze?

No, that's not the smart way to hold a thing with two edges.

You have to figure out how to handle it and be careful with it, you know?

So, this is when he says something, he does this stop learning, start dying, which is something Ebenezer said to him in a previous book.

And Fitz is like, I like that.

And he's like, yeah, I mean, you know, it's metaphorical, but it is really true.

And

Fitz finally is like, I've been meaning to thank you for all of this that you've done.

And he says, all right, well, there's a way you can pay me back.

And Fitz immediately tenses up and it's just like, oh boy, here it comes.