Nicholas Howland
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first heard Mar 2026
last heard 9 Mar
Nicholas Howland’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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Just that immediate like, fuck, yes, this is why support from your spouse meant everything.
And so I was all in.
So the working title right now is the atheist's prayer and the, it's a memoir and it goes from my life as a kid, which was pretty, I was born into an LDS Mormon family in Utah and I was all in, I believed every bit of it.
And at 19, I went and served a two-year mission, lived in Russia for two years and was fully in.
And then went through a period of life where I was excommunicated from this church, came back, got re-baptized, recommitted, and then went through a divorce and got excommunicated a second time.
And that was when I kind of said, fuck you to God and said, this is not real.
And I spent years in a very dark place where I just, I didn't really believe in a higher power at all.
And as I came out of that and I started to find some love and rediscovery of me, I had an experience in ayahuasca that kind of helped me realize that prayer is just gratitude.
It's just an expression of gratitude.
And it reintroduced me to spirituality and the higher power that I had lost for years.
And I've been able to come back to this devout, self-loving, free person through those experiences.
Thank you.
I'm going to be the only guy there.
So am I the only one on the island who has not fully gone through a book writing process with you?
Okay.
Okay.
Honestly, it's that God is inside of all of us and that prayer is an expression of gratitude and just take some time for you.
Take some time to rediscover you every single day and you will find
self-love for you, which I think is the most important gift you can find or remember.
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