Nick Harkaway

They would let one person in every day and there were only two people allowed to be on that list so they could alternate.

And two of my three brothers then were in town.

And one of them, Tim, who alas is also now dead, had a more shaky relationship with him at the time.

And I had to have this extraordinary sort of moment where one of us could go in and see him and one of us couldn't.

And I was like, well, okay, it's obviously you.

Because I really didn't have anything that I needed to say or that I needed him to say to me.

We had no unfinished business.

And I felt that Tim did.

And he went in and they held hands.

I don't know whether they even spoke, really.

But it mattered to Tim.

It was important.

And I hoped that the next day they would bend the rules for me because anything was possible in that moment, if you ask nicely enough, because it was obvious what was happening.

And then he died at sort of 9 o'clock that night.

And obviously, on the one hand, I wish I could have kind of said hi and bye one more time, however awful that would have been.

But I also don't regret the decision for one second because there was nothing outstanding between us.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah, he died by ridiculous medical accident.

I mean, not in a hospital situation.

He had a pulmonary embolism, I think, and died on holiday.