Nick Middaugh

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Yeah. Yeah. I explicitly detail it. Um, at one point I, I have this memory and I kind of put it in the book. Um, Standing next to the sink with my mom, and I'm like a little kid, and I end up being scared that she's going to find this out, this stuff. But little kid me knows that what's happening is wrong. It makes me feel gross. I don't like it.

Yeah. Yeah. I explicitly detail it. Um, at one point I, I have this memory and I kind of put it in the book. Um, Standing next to the sink with my mom, and I'm like a little kid, and I end up being scared that she's going to find this out, this stuff. But little kid me knows that what's happening is wrong. It makes me feel gross. I don't like it.

Yeah. Yeah. I explicitly detail it. Um, at one point I, I have this memory and I kind of put it in the book. Um, Standing next to the sink with my mom, and I'm like a little kid, and I end up being scared that she's going to find this out, this stuff. But little kid me knows that what's happening is wrong. It makes me feel gross. I don't like it.

There's a pit in my stomach, and I don't understand these feelings at the time, but I just know it's not right, and it's not good, and it doesn't make me feel good.

There's a pit in my stomach, and I don't understand these feelings at the time, but I just know it's not right, and it's not good, and it doesn't make me feel good.

There's a pit in my stomach, and I don't understand these feelings at the time, but I just know it's not right, and it's not good, and it doesn't make me feel good.

And, uh, so little kid me, you know, I'm like standing, I'm standing at the sink next to my mom and I'm trying to think of a way, like I can ask her like how to make this stop without revealing the secret because, because of the grooming and everything, like what this boy was parroting to me was like, your mom and dad aren't going to love you if they find out, you know, you're not going to be able to.

And, uh, so little kid me, you know, I'm like standing, I'm standing at the sink next to my mom and I'm trying to think of a way, like I can ask her like how to make this stop without revealing the secret because, because of the grooming and everything, like what this boy was parroting to me was like, your mom and dad aren't going to love you if they find out, you know, you're not going to be able to.

And, uh, so little kid me, you know, I'm like standing, I'm standing at the sink next to my mom and I'm trying to think of a way, like I can ask her like how to make this stop without revealing the secret because, because of the grooming and everything, like what this boy was parroting to me was like, your mom and dad aren't going to love you if they find out, you know, you're not going to be able to.

This is from a five-year-old? Yeah. Fuck. I don't even think I could talk when I was five. Yeah. No, it's. um damning and that's that's kind of that's the nature of this issue is it's just evil um so i'm standing next to my mom at the sink and i remember asking her i'm like hey if this boy's doing something that if he's playing a game i don't want to play like how do i get him to stop and

This is from a five-year-old? Yeah. Fuck. I don't even think I could talk when I was five. Yeah. No, it's. um damning and that's that's kind of that's the nature of this issue is it's just evil um so i'm standing next to my mom at the sink and i remember asking her i'm like hey if this boy's doing something that if he's playing a game i don't want to play like how do i get him to stop and

This is from a five-year-old? Yeah. Fuck. I don't even think I could talk when I was five. Yeah. No, it's. um damning and that's that's kind of that's the nature of this issue is it's just evil um so i'm standing next to my mom at the sink and i remember asking her i'm like hey if this boy's doing something that if he's playing a game i don't want to play like how do i get him to stop and

She's like, well, just tell him you don't want to play anymore. And I'm like, OK, you know, like wipe my forehead like she didn't find out. OK, like this, maybe this can can get it to stop. And I remember on one specific hangout day or whatever occasion, I'm upstairs and he goes down to his pants and he's saying, hey, I want pee pee time. And I'm like, I don't want to do that. And.

She's like, well, just tell him you don't want to play anymore. And I'm like, OK, you know, like wipe my forehead like she didn't find out. OK, like this, maybe this can can get it to stop. And I remember on one specific hangout day or whatever occasion, I'm upstairs and he goes down to his pants and he's saying, hey, I want pee pee time. And I'm like, I don't want to do that. And.

She's like, well, just tell him you don't want to play anymore. And I'm like, OK, you know, like wipe my forehead like she didn't find out. OK, like this, maybe this can can get it to stop. And I remember on one specific hangout day or whatever occasion, I'm upstairs and he goes down to his pants and he's saying, hey, I want pee pee time. And I'm like, I don't want to do that. And.

He says no fair, my house, my rules, like all these little kid phrases to negotiate, I guess. And I said, well, then I'm going to go home. And then after that, like I remember he would still chide me sometimes to try to get it to happen. And I just didn't. I was like, no. And, you know, talking about this in hindsight, you can kind of, you can apply a lot of like understanding.

He says no fair, my house, my rules, like all these little kid phrases to negotiate, I guess. And I said, well, then I'm going to go home. And then after that, like I remember he would still chide me sometimes to try to get it to happen. And I just didn't. I was like, no. And, you know, talking about this in hindsight, you can kind of, you can apply a lot of like understanding.