Nick Middaugh

I didn't feel like I could tell anybody. And then I'm also, like, forced to hang out with my abuser. And so when I go back home now, it's like a weird feeling of going back to this place of, well, here's this trauma, but also, like, here's this beautiful home I grew up in.

I didn't feel like I could tell anybody. And then I'm also, like, forced to hang out with my abuser. And so when I go back home now, it's like a weird feeling of going back to this place of, well, here's this trauma, but also, like, here's this beautiful home I grew up in.

I didn't feel like I could tell anybody. And then I'm also, like, forced to hang out with my abuser. And so when I go back home now, it's like a weird feeling of going back to this place of, well, here's this trauma, but also, like, here's this beautiful home I grew up in.

So my mom and dad never found out. I ended up telling them two years ago. So I was reticent, meaning so completely silent. Reticence, just for the listeners, is a term we use for the duration between the abuse and disclosure.

So my mom and dad never found out. I ended up telling them two years ago. So I was reticent, meaning so completely silent. Reticence, just for the listeners, is a term we use for the duration between the abuse and disclosure.

So my mom and dad never found out. I ended up telling them two years ago. So I was reticent, meaning so completely silent. Reticence, just for the listeners, is a term we use for the duration between the abuse and disclosure.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right. So, uh, around that period of my life, um, I'd been sober for a year and I went to therapy for, you know, I found this therapist initially when, um, I was trying to process some of the trauma and went through, uh, working at spread apartment of public safety as an officer.

Right. So, uh, around that period of my life, um, I'd been sober for a year and I went to therapy for, you know, I found this therapist initially when, um, I was trying to process some of the trauma and went through, uh, working at spread apartment of public safety as an officer.

Right. So, uh, around that period of my life, um, I'd been sober for a year and I went to therapy for, you know, I found this therapist initially when, um, I was trying to process some of the trauma and went through, uh, working at spread apartment of public safety as an officer.

And I kind of casually mentioned to her, you know, because I'm going to school for social work and I'm doing this therapy. And I kind of casually mentioned to her, I'm like, hey, you know, I have this shit that happened to me as a kid. And, you know, I'd kind of like to work through that at some point. But like right now, let's just focus on service related stuff.

And I kind of casually mentioned to her, you know, because I'm going to school for social work and I'm doing this therapy. And I kind of casually mentioned to her, I'm like, hey, you know, I have this shit that happened to me as a kid. And, you know, I'd kind of like to work through that at some point. But like right now, let's just focus on service related stuff.

And I kind of casually mentioned to her, you know, because I'm going to school for social work and I'm doing this therapy. And I kind of casually mentioned to her, I'm like, hey, you know, I have this shit that happened to me as a kid. And, you know, I'd kind of like to work through that at some point. But like right now, let's just focus on service related stuff.

And so I got through that and then we started to unpack what happened to me as a child. And there was some conversations about disclosure to my mom and dad. And around the same time, I was writing this research proposal into male CSA. And I just kind of saw it as this necessary path, I guess, that I needed to get to.

And so I got through that and then we started to unpack what happened to me as a child. And there was some conversations about disclosure to my mom and dad. And around the same time, I was writing this research proposal into male CSA. And I just kind of saw it as this necessary path, I guess, that I needed to get to.

And so I got through that and then we started to unpack what happened to me as a child. And there was some conversations about disclosure to my mom and dad. And around the same time, I was writing this research proposal into male CSA. And I just kind of saw it as this necessary path, I guess, that I needed to get to.

To jump back just a second, growing up, I kind of played this game in my head related to the CSA where I'd set this

To jump back just a second, growing up, I kind of played this game in my head related to the CSA where I'd set this