Nick Middaugh

Um, and, uh, she's like, is that how you want us to find you? Is that how you want your son to find you? You know, she could have split. She could have, it could went, you know, I don't know, but she, uh, she took a step forward and she said that, and I fucking dropped the knife in the sink and just collapsed, you know, crying. And, uh,

Um, and, uh, she's like, is that how you want us to find you? Is that how you want your son to find you? You know, she could have split. She could have, it could went, you know, I don't know, but she, uh, she took a step forward and she said that, and I fucking dropped the knife in the sink and just collapsed, you know, crying. And, uh,

You know, there's moments in your life where, at least in mine, I can look back and I'm like, this should have been what broke me out. This should have been the moment where I like self-actualized.

You know, there's moments in your life where, at least in mine, I can look back and I'm like, this should have been what broke me out. This should have been the moment where I like self-actualized.

You know, there's moments in your life where, at least in mine, I can look back and I'm like, this should have been what broke me out. This should have been the moment where I like self-actualized.

Well, so, you know, Didn't go to therapy after that. I kind of cut back on my drinking a little bit, but I was still just getting sauced every night. Just maintenance drinking.

Well, so, you know, Didn't go to therapy after that. I kind of cut back on my drinking a little bit, but I was still just getting sauced every night. Just maintenance drinking.

Well, so, you know, Didn't go to therapy after that. I kind of cut back on my drinking a little bit, but I was still just getting sauced every night. Just maintenance drinking.

Yeah. Well, to be clear, too, like I should say, if you can drink and you can have fun, like go do it. Like, I'm not going to stop you. I have nothing against that. No. I can't. I don't stop. I need it.

Yeah. Well, to be clear, too, like I should say, if you can drink and you can have fun, like go do it. Like, I'm not going to stop you. I have nothing against that. No. I can't. I don't stop. I need it.

Yeah. Well, to be clear, too, like I should say, if you can drink and you can have fun, like go do it. Like, I'm not going to stop you. I have nothing against that. No. I can't. I don't stop. I need it.

Yeah, yeah. Yeah, so from that point, I mean, I kind of drank less, but, you know, still going down this path of service or whatever, I'm doing corrections, and then eventually I end up quitting because corrections is fucking, like, kid corrections at least. Those people are seriously underpaid, and they're dealing with a lot of shit. Yeah, I bet. And I was sick of it.

Yeah, yeah. Yeah, so from that point, I mean, I kind of drank less, but, you know, still going down this path of service or whatever, I'm doing corrections, and then eventually I end up quitting because corrections is fucking, like, kid corrections at least. Those people are seriously underpaid, and they're dealing with a lot of shit. Yeah, I bet. And I was sick of it.

Yeah, yeah. Yeah, so from that point, I mean, I kind of drank less, but, you know, still going down this path of service or whatever, I'm doing corrections, and then eventually I end up quitting because corrections is fucking, like, kid corrections at least. Those people are seriously underpaid, and they're dealing with a lot of shit. Yeah, I bet. And I was sick of it.

So I went from there to getting hired by STPS, and I had a brief stint of sobriety in there that probably, like, lasted about six months. And this is something like when I talk to other people that have been recovering from alcoholism, they're trying to get sober. It's easy for me to say like, oh, eventually I just ended up stopping. But that's not the truth.

So I went from there to getting hired by STPS, and I had a brief stint of sobriety in there that probably, like, lasted about six months. And this is something like when I talk to other people that have been recovering from alcoholism, they're trying to get sober. It's easy for me to say like, oh, eventually I just ended up stopping. But that's not the truth.

So I went from there to getting hired by STPS, and I had a brief stint of sobriety in there that probably, like, lasted about six months. And this is something like when I talk to other people that have been recovering from alcoholism, they're trying to get sober. It's easy for me to say like, oh, eventually I just ended up stopping. But that's not the truth.

Like the truth of the matter is like throughout all those years of drinking, like I wanted to quit. I knew I wasn't on the right path, but I just didn't have the strength of the gumption to get through it and have the self-control. Um, chances are, if you try to quit drinking, you're going to quit for a period or try to, and then you're gonna end up right back where you're at.

Like the truth of the matter is like throughout all those years of drinking, like I wanted to quit. I knew I wasn't on the right path, but I just didn't have the strength of the gumption to get through it and have the self-control. Um, chances are, if you try to quit drinking, you're going to quit for a period or try to, and then you're gonna end up right back where you're at.

Like the truth of the matter is like throughout all those years of drinking, like I wanted to quit. I knew I wasn't on the right path, but I just didn't have the strength of the gumption to get through it and have the self-control. Um, chances are, if you try to quit drinking, you're going to quit for a period or try to, and then you're gonna end up right back where you're at.