Nick Middaugh

But, um, the important thing there is like, for me later on, after I finally got sober, uh, I had to realize there was no moderation for me. There is no date where I'm like, Oh, eventually I can have a drink and it'll be fine. That's important. And what broke me from that initial sobriety was I was hanging out with my dad and my brother. And, uh, I'm like, I could have a beer or two months later.

But, um, the important thing there is like, for me later on, after I finally got sober, uh, I had to realize there was no moderation for me. There is no date where I'm like, Oh, eventually I can have a drink and it'll be fine. That's important. And what broke me from that initial sobriety was I was hanging out with my dad and my brother. And, uh, I'm like, I could have a beer or two months later.

But, um, the important thing there is like, for me later on, after I finally got sober, uh, I had to realize there was no moderation for me. There is no date where I'm like, Oh, eventually I can have a drink and it'll be fine. That's important. And what broke me from that initial sobriety was I was hanging out with my dad and my brother. And, uh, I'm like, I could have a beer or two months later.

I'm back to drinking heavy every night. Um, what's kept you on the path the last three and a half years, honestly had to realize that I deserve a better life than getting drunk every day. Um, The crazy thing is you would think because you have kids and because you have a wife that those are going to be your reasons enough. Like you're going to, oh, she'd have a kid now.

I'm back to drinking heavy every night. Um, what's kept you on the path the last three and a half years, honestly had to realize that I deserve a better life than getting drunk every day. Um, The crazy thing is you would think because you have kids and because you have a wife that those are going to be your reasons enough. Like you're going to, oh, she'd have a kid now.

I'm back to drinking heavy every night. Um, what's kept you on the path the last three and a half years, honestly had to realize that I deserve a better life than getting drunk every day. Um, The crazy thing is you would think because you have kids and because you have a wife that those are going to be your reasons enough. Like you're going to, oh, she'd have a kid now.

And maybe that's the case for a lot of people. I don't know. But for me, I was just so fucking broken and subscribed to this victim mentality that I didn't – they just weren't enough of a reason for me to quit.

And maybe that's the case for a lot of people. I don't know. But for me, I was just so fucking broken and subscribed to this victim mentality that I didn't – they just weren't enough of a reason for me to quit.

And maybe that's the case for a lot of people. I don't know. But for me, I was just so fucking broken and subscribed to this victim mentality that I didn't – they just weren't enough of a reason for me to quit.

I don't want to put words in your mouth.

I don't want to put words in your mouth.

I don't want to put words in your mouth.

I like survivor more than victim. But that's also kind of a term where you're like, you're kind of identifying with, I guess, what happened to you and like, you're going to classify yourself by it.

I like survivor more than victim. But that's also kind of a term where you're like, you're kind of identifying with, I guess, what happened to you and like, you're going to classify yourself by it.

I like survivor more than victim. But that's also kind of a term where you're like, you're kind of identifying with, I guess, what happened to you and like, you're going to classify yourself by it.

Maybe.

Maybe.

Maybe.

I see somebody that's trying to stay on the path. You know, I don't see myself as, I don't see myself as who I was as a drunk. I don't see myself as the little kid. Um, I see somebody who's grown enough at least most days. Some days I just, you know, look in the mirror. I'm like, God, you gotta lose some weight or you're a piece of shit. You're like, you did this.

I see somebody that's trying to stay on the path. You know, I don't see myself as, I don't see myself as who I was as a drunk. I don't see myself as the little kid. Um, I see somebody who's grown enough at least most days. Some days I just, you know, look in the mirror. I'm like, God, you gotta lose some weight or you're a piece of shit. You're like, you did this.