Nick Middaugh

I see somebody that's trying to stay on the path. You know, I don't see myself as, I don't see myself as who I was as a drunk. I don't see myself as the little kid. Um, I see somebody who's grown enough at least most days. Some days I just, you know, look in the mirror. I'm like, God, you gotta lose some weight or you're a piece of shit. You're like, you did this.

How you doing? Um, me again. Hi. Uh, get after it. But, um, yeah, dude. Uh, it's a lot more positive these days. And what started with that, what kept me sober was I had to love myself enough because I didn't love myself for years because of the abuse, because of the choices I was making as an alcoholic.

How you doing? Um, me again. Hi. Uh, get after it. But, um, yeah, dude. Uh, it's a lot more positive these days. And what started with that, what kept me sober was I had to love myself enough because I didn't love myself for years because of the abuse, because of the choices I was making as an alcoholic.

How you doing? Um, me again. Hi. Uh, get after it. But, um, yeah, dude. Uh, it's a lot more positive these days. And what started with that, what kept me sober was I had to love myself enough because I didn't love myself for years because of the abuse, because of the choices I was making as an alcoholic.

Like there was a lot of guilt and shame associated with that, especially because like I was just stabbing people in the heart left and right to love me. They're my friends. They wanted nothing, nothing but to help me and support me. and I just was not a good dude during that period of my life. So, you know, I had to realize, like, I don't deserve this.

Like there was a lot of guilt and shame associated with that, especially because like I was just stabbing people in the heart left and right to love me. They're my friends. They wanted nothing, nothing but to help me and support me. and I just was not a good dude during that period of my life. So, you know, I had to realize, like, I don't deserve this.

Like there was a lot of guilt and shame associated with that, especially because like I was just stabbing people in the heart left and right to love me. They're my friends. They wanted nothing, nothing but to help me and support me. and I just was not a good dude during that period of my life. So, you know, I had to realize, like, I don't deserve this.

Chiefly, I had to do this for me because then I can be better for my wife. I can be better for my kids, but it's got to start with me. And part of my, you know, I don't disagree with any one given way to get sober, like, As long as it's not hurting somebody else, like if it keeps you sober, fucking do it. I would agree. I'm a fan of that.

Chiefly, I had to do this for me because then I can be better for my wife. I can be better for my kids, but it's got to start with me. And part of my, you know, I don't disagree with any one given way to get sober, like, As long as it's not hurting somebody else, like if it keeps you sober, fucking do it. I would agree. I'm a fan of that.

Chiefly, I had to do this for me because then I can be better for my wife. I can be better for my kids, but it's got to start with me. And part of my, you know, I don't disagree with any one given way to get sober, like, As long as it's not hurting somebody else, like if it keeps you sober, fucking do it. I would agree. I'm a fan of that.

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And yeah, like I just, I had to read, like I had to come to a place where like, I have to do this for me. Like, it has to be me because people are going to die, jobs are going to be temporary, or they might come and go. If I do it for my wife, what happens if we get divorced one day? Well, that was my main reason to get sober, so now what am I going to do?

And yeah, like I just, I had to read, like I had to come to a place where like, I have to do this for me. Like, it has to be me because people are going to die, jobs are going to be temporary, or they might come and go. If I do it for my wife, what happens if we get divorced one day? Well, that was my main reason to get sober, so now what am I going to do?

And yeah, like I just, I had to read, like I had to come to a place where like, I have to do this for me. Like, it has to be me because people are going to die, jobs are going to be temporary, or they might come and go. If I do it for my wife, what happens if we get divorced one day? Well, that was my main reason to get sober, so now what am I going to do?

Am I going to fall back into it, or do I have the gumption to get through now that my main reason to getting sober is gone? What do you think is the main risk to your sobriety now? Honestly... I don't know because it's gotten a lot easier to say no. It's just still there some days. And – It's going to be there every day. Yeah. Yeah. I mean it's – there's a constant level.

Am I going to fall back into it, or do I have the gumption to get through now that my main reason to getting sober is gone? What do you think is the main risk to your sobriety now? Honestly... I don't know because it's gotten a lot easier to say no. It's just still there some days. And – It's going to be there every day. Yeah. Yeah. I mean it's – there's a constant level.

Am I going to fall back into it, or do I have the gumption to get through now that my main reason to getting sober is gone? What do you think is the main risk to your sobriety now? Honestly... I don't know because it's gotten a lot easier to say no. It's just still there some days. And – It's going to be there every day. Yeah. Yeah. I mean it's – there's a constant level.

Yeah, exactly.