Nick Viall

And it feels really gross watching the whole thing.

Yeah, I mean, there's going to be a certain level of grandiosity that you're probably going to start to have.

And you need to also have enough awareness to know that this is all being fed by the validation that you're receiving online and what that does for you.

You know, like I'm no...

big reality star, but I'm big enough to understand the praise that I get, the hundreds of comments or DMs that I get daily telling me that I'm amazing or I make such a big difference or whatever it is.

And I understand that I grew up in a family where I felt like I didn't get enough attention

And now I'm being flooded with attention.

And there's going to be a part of me that's just like, oh, this is really healing a void, a wound inside of me, an attachment wound.

I'm getting like healed by it.

But really, I just want my mom to hug me, right?

I just want my dad to be like, I love you, right?

That's what would actually heal me.

So all the stuff that I'm getting outside of that, it's not real.

It feels really good in the moment.

And I'm just going to want more and more and more and more because it's never really going to heal me.

I have to actually, like, grieve what I didn't get as a kid.

And it makes me...

Think about Taylor.

Taylor Frankie Paul's father just walked out.

Total abandonment issues.