Nicola

As they approached Liffey Valley in the car, she could see the flashing lights and she could see that the traffic was

was coming to a standstill, she could see an ambulance and a lot of people and police around.

And she remember screaming and asking people to say to the police that she was there.

So she said it wasn't until after Christmas was over that they could see their dad in the morgue and she felt terrible guilt having to leave him there.

She had gone to pick up the toys for her son herself and she was saying that like what was supposed to be the most brilliant day was a horror show.

You know, they had to try and put a smile on their faces and get on with it for the children.

and try and shield the little ones, including her son, from the details of what had happened.

They felt too guilty to eat dinner.

It was the first Christmas, she said, in eight years that we were all looking forward to, myself and my brother, looking forward to, you know, seeing their dad.

And now they were looking at having to say...

goodbye and their final goodbyes to their dad.

She said it was like something from a movie.

The funeral was on the 2nd of January.

Very hard to explain, she said.

We lost our mother 10 years previously, but this was a different pain.

It was unbearable.

We both talked about talking about herself and her brother Christopher ending our lives.

And she describes how herself and her brother both got jobs in the city centre.

They probably followed his work ethic.

And she said her dad used to send her lunch every day into work.