Nicole Mosley
Appearances
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And I used to, you know, Q and I are very close. So, you know, I think that being that Don knew that how close we were, I think that that stopped a lot. I really I think that she could they couldn't get him the way that they really wanted because I really inserted myself a lot. I this is my only son. So I mean, we and we're still very close to this day. You know what I mean?
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
But there's some things that, you know, you take to the grave with you, just like hearing some of these things just a few minutes ago.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
I remember Dawn telling me, because I used to have conversations with her.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
um that's all i could remember to be honest but they used to fake like they they were giving pills when they went to different occasions different things studio stuff like that and q was telling me that how her q and dawn because remember dawn would come to our house and spend like days Like with Q and stuff like that.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And she would say, oh, well, you know, we will go to these parties and we would take the pills and put them in our pocket. But we would have to act like, you know, that they were on whatever the people at the parties were on.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And I would say, I used to tell Q, Q, that's smart. But all along, I think Q was lying to me because he was actually taking the pills. Because remember, he was 18, 19 years old. And he knew that I would, Q, what are you doing? Like, what are you doing? You know, and I would have said those things to him. Like, what are you doing? You don't, listen, I'm not taking nothing.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
I'm not going to take nothing. Because I don't want to, I don't even want to know what's going to happen. I mean, I hear stories about people sniffing cocaine and their heart bust or something. You know what I mean? Just different things. I don't want to be in that situation. So I probably would have said that to my son. Like, what are you doing? This is not what you're here for.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
But I get it now that when you're a celebrity... And you you got cameras following you when you leave out of the hotel or your, you know, whatever on the streets you're running and you're just subjected to being in a hotel. So what else can we do? What else can we do? But pop pills and, you know, just do things.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And so I kind of understood why he did do things, because it's you guys lives were different from other people's lives, right? You couldn't do normal things. You understand what I'm saying? Outside of, do you guys get what I'm saying? Yeah, so as a mom, I kind of understood it, but I was still angry with him. As to what are you guys doing?
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
But I felt safer when him and Don said, oh, no, we used to put the pills in our pockets. We used to pretend, you know, they're bopping around or whatever.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
Well, we come from, I actually had Q when I was very young.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
I was 16. People come from different lifestyles.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And unfortunately, you can come from a lifestyle where, you know, you're around this big person and, oh. wow, you know what I mean? What can I do to make sure that I stay at that level? You know, and those type of things.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And I mean, like, we probably grew up different. I probably grew up different from how you were raised with your parents. You probably had a bigger house and so forth on.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And we come out of a neighborhood where, oh, my God, you made the band. You understand what I'm saying? It's totally different. So we come from different lifestyles, you know, so.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And I can tell you that I am a protector. I have three children and I love my kids. And I'm still hurt to this day from a lot of things. Still trying to understand because you know your kids. That's a common thread. And I know whatever happened to my son, it happened during the years of him making that band. And that's where it all started.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And if I could give that all back for my son just to be in college, I would. No parent... No parent should have to see their child go through anything such as what I've seen, whether if it's Cassie or anybody else. But I also know that they have choices and I'm not making excuses for my son at his age because he was taught right and wrong.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
He knows that if I'm not going to do this, my mom said this is not right. He had a choice. But when you love someone so hard and you put all your trust in them and you think, OK, I love this person so much that they're not going to hurt me and they turn around and they do that. It's not right. It's not right.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
TJ, you're crying. When Making the Band was on, they ate me alive on the Internet. But what I'm saying... When I say they ate me alive, meaning... I actually quit my job when Q made the band because he asked his family to move to Virginia because that's what his manager, Screwface, wanted us to do. Oh, we got a house down here. You can set up your job down here.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
I just wanted to be next to my son to make sure that he was, because he was so young, I wanted to make sure that he was guided right. And so I did all those things to move. And while they were on the show, we get pack up this truck or whatever. We're on the road. And we get a call from Screwface. Oh, the house fell through. We couldn't move in. And so Q at the time was taping.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And so he gets on there. He's like, I'm just worried about my family, my family, my family. And people kept they chewed me alive. Why would she quit her job for someone that just made the band at age 18? And do you know how bad I wanted to go on there and say, you don't know what the hell you're talking about. And you don't either. Q says, Mama, you can't do that. You see Beyonce's mom do that?
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
You know how much she's probably felt that, though? And I don't like it. So that's why you hardly ever hear of Q's mom ever saying anything online when all these things, you know, just him being on, you know, different podcasts and stuff like that. Today was the day that I felt that somebody needed to hear my voice on how I feel about everything. I can't blame Diddy, but I know he's not innocent.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
I can only blame the people that were around me and my child because my son put so much into who he loved that I can only blame her because she was what, eight years older than Q? She had a lot of influence on him. And all he knew was that that was my girl. Mom, you can't tell me nothing about her.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
All along, I kept telling him, Q, this don't sound right. I don't know. I don't trust her. Then this. It's just. It's the mom's worst nightmare. If I could give it all back, I would. I wouldn't just want my son to stay in college and just do the right thing. And I keep saying that days and nights.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
I look at all his accomplishments when my son would walk down the street and I would just go on Facebook or anything like that. And people say, did you see that boy Q from day 26 looking crazy?
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
When I literally tell you... The trauma is severe. When I literally tell you we didn't understand anything and I was embarrassed. Then I had to think about it and said, this is my son. People will call me, did you see Q walking up the street? Or he's at the park sitting in a tree or something just out of his mind or... You guys can't even imagine what I went through as a mom.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
And all I used to do was get on my knees and pray. I would look at all his accomplishments, accomplishments, BET awards, all those plaques and key to the city. And I said, Lord, what has happened to my child? What is going on? I didn't have any answers. I didn't have anybody to turn to because we weren't really getting exact answers from Q.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
Yeah. And the way that they twisted things. You know what I mean? The way that they twisted.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
OK, so as a mom. Hold on.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
Just watching my son come back from being around Don and him when this incident happened and him coming home and we not understanding what happened. Here I have my son, young, 18, 19. Never seen him in this state before. And I'm like, what happened? He went away. He comes home. And he's locked in his room. He's talking crazy. I'm like, what is going on?
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
To have him admitted into a hospital and for them thinking that maybe he was on, what is it?
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
K2 or something like that. And they said, well, whatever it is, we don't know what it is. And, yeah. I think if I wasn't there for my son, I think that they would have sucked him in to something more.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
He was so I mean, he was fans favorite. Everybody loved him. He was he aced the dancing. He vocals all of that, you know, and then it just turned around like somebody had did something that we just could not put our finger on.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
Well, when it comes to Diddy, I think the fact that he orchestrated, he was part of the orchestration as far as like producing the pills or whatever, things like that. Aubrey, remember this, you know, for mom, me taking him to the hospital and stuff like that. We later found there were things that was found in him, in the system. It's in his medical records.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
So, like I said, you know, this wasn't something to just, you know what I mean? Something that's hereditary.
Amy Robach & T.J. Holmes present: Aubrey O’Day, Covering the Diddy Trial
Making the Band’s Que - addressing the trial and finding healing from the pain
But they couldn't determine exactly what it was, is what I'm saying. At the time, like I said, they thought it was HK2. HK2.