Nicole

Yeah.

I have that, thankfully.

I have a husband.

It's hard.

Yeah.

Because he does a lot to show his love.

He'll ask me, how can I best serve you today?

And how can I love you?

And he shows up in really incredible ways.

No.

I think in some ways, just going back to growing up, I have three siblings, and I saw how drugs and alcohol and different lifestyles, how they chose those things, and I chose social media and video games and things, and that was...

my way to escape in some ways, but I, I, um, I just always felt like the awkward kid.

Uh, and in some ways I still feel awkward and don't really, I don't, it just, it's, I just, I struggle with feeling like I fit in, in different environments.

Okay.

How do you ever want to do a fast?

How do you do a fast when, like during the workday, it's still something that's required?

Got it, got it.

I kind of a silly follow-up question on that.

Like we, we recently moved cross country, moved back to his hometown, um,

And I'm still working on building friends and community here.