Nicole

Like I don't like I'm an outsider in the group.

Once the game's over.

Um, I do hula on, um, my free days and like, um, I mean, I'm not like athletic or anything, so I'm just there for fun, but it always seems like I'm there and I'm paying attention and I'm having fun, but somehow I just don't mix in with other people.

Like, I don't know if there's not that there's clicks.

It's just like, everybody's at this hyping rhythm and I'm over here being like, okay, I'm just trying and it doesn't seem to be working.

I don't know.

Being able to talk to people during breaks and feel like I could, like I am included, like I'm allowed.

Because when I try, I don't know, it almost feels like I intruded.

I feel that.

Well, because I've tried that.

I've invited people out.

I've invited people over to dinner.

When they have gatherings, I go.

And if it was just the last two years of this, then I would be like, okay.

But I guess it's because it's been my whole life of trying and trying and trying.

And then just tired.

Just tired of trying.

No, I would say that's a huge possibility.

Maybe.

Hey, Dr. John.