Nicole

I don't know if it's because I'm an existential thinker, I'm dyslexic, if those are the reasons, but I've never really had a good time making connections with people where I feel like seen.

I feel like I always have to alter myself in order for people to digest me.

And so let me pause right there.

Well, I feel like you're one of the few.

I do enter into different rooms and join groups.

I've listened to your show for a while.

I am part of a D&D group.

I do.

Well, it's more like...

there's no, a lot of interaction in terms of like personal interaction.

We go and it's all introverts and everybody does their own thing.

And at the end of the day, when we all say goodbye, it's like, nobody says bye to me.

Like I don't like I'm an outsider in the group.

Once the game's over.

Um, I do hula on, um, my free days and like, um, I mean, I'm not like athletic or anything, so I'm just there for fun, but it always seems like I'm there and I'm paying attention and I'm having fun, but somehow I just don't mix in with other people.

Like, I don't know if there's not that there's clicks.

It's just like, everybody's at this hyping rhythm and I'm over here being like, okay, I'm just trying and it doesn't seem to be working.

I don't know.

Being able to talk to people during breaks and feel like I could, like I am included, like I'm allowed.

Because when I try, I don't know, it almost feels like I intruded.