Nikki Westcott

fucking terrified especially with your first baby it's like such a wild life altering thing and it's like knowing that like then and yet I feel like you've just like Rafa who is she Nikki just says nothing like you just feel so normal do you know what

Not all the time, for sure.

Like, it's so nice to have her here, but, like, this morning, and I didn't realize, but I had a morning where I felt more like me than I have since having her.

And I... That'll do it.

So, like, I had the time to go to the gym.

Like, she was up last night, too, so it's not like I was, like, tired, but got up, went to the gym, came home, quickly had a shower.

Like, Ollie had to go to work, and then...

I sat down in front of my mirror and usually I've been doing my makeup in the bathroom because she'll, if she's napping or whatever, I just like leave it in the bathroom now.

But sat down in front of my bedroom mirror.

I put my breastfeeding pillow on my lap and I put her on the boob.

So I had like one knee up.

Yep.

Feeding her, doing my makeup, listening to Alexis's podcast.

Oh, that's a you thing.

And I was like, oh my God.

getting ready for work and like, you know, having worked out and having like maintained like a morning routine.

I was like, oh my God, that's so important to me.

It's so nice.

Like even on the weekend, like Ola and I went down, I'd been for a walk and

And he's like, I'll come down and meet you.