Nikki Westcott

I never told him what happened because I feel like it would only hurt him more.

My major fuck up, so my guilt to carry on.

But the shame still follows me around and shows up as huge anxiety.

So girlies, what the hell do I do?

How do I stop punishing myself over my marriage?

How do I move on from someone who clearly doesn't want the same things as me but keep our special friendship?

And do you think he's genuinely damaged from past relationships or is he just not that into me?

Also, now that I don't live there and when I actually make plans to see other friends, he gets shitty and sends messages that he knows will trigger me and make me mad or feel guilty for having a life.

This guy is bad news, sister.

Bad news.

Bad.

So bad, babe.

Bad.

Like, but... That's all I heard.

Yeah, because secretly he doesn't love me.

Totally because there's no like actual rhyme nor reason.

Like he's getting mad at you and like sending you texts when you go and try and have a life.

Like, you're like, well, actually, I'd quite like to have a life with you.

Yeah.

And you've really just got to take...