Nolan Arbaugh

imagine like all of the steps that go into well taking a step like all of the things that have to move like all the activations that have to happen along your leg in order for one step to occur but you're not just imagining you're like doing it right i'm trying yeah so it's like it's imagining over again what I had to do to take a step. Because it's not something any of us think about.

You want to walk and you take a step. You don't think about all of the different things that are going on in your body. So I had to recreate that in my head as much as I could. And then I practice it over and over and over.

You want to walk and you take a step. You don't think about all of the different things that are going on in your body. So I had to recreate that in my head as much as I could. And then I practice it over and over and over.

You want to walk and you take a step. You don't think about all of the different things that are going on in your body. So I had to recreate that in my head as much as I could. And then I practice it over and over and over.

Yeah. Which, which was hard. It was hard at the beginning.

Yeah. Which, which was hard. It was hard at the beginning.

Yeah. Which, which was hard. It was hard at the beginning.

Like which way? It was both. Um, There's a scene in one of the Kill Bill movies, actually, oddly enough, where she is paralyzed, I don't know, from a drug that was in her system. And then she finds some way to get into the back of a truck or something, and she stares at her toe, and she says, move, move your big toe. And after a few seconds on screen, she does it.

Like which way? It was both. Um, There's a scene in one of the Kill Bill movies, actually, oddly enough, where she is paralyzed, I don't know, from a drug that was in her system. And then she finds some way to get into the back of a truck or something, and she stares at her toe, and she says, move, move your big toe. And after a few seconds on screen, she does it.

Like which way? It was both. Um, There's a scene in one of the Kill Bill movies, actually, oddly enough, where she is paralyzed, I don't know, from a drug that was in her system. And then she finds some way to get into the back of a truck or something, and she stares at her toe, and she says, move, move your big toe. And after a few seconds on screen, she does it.

And she did that with every one of her body parts until she could move again. I did that for years. Just stared at my body and said, move your index finger, move your big toe. Sometimes vocalizing it out loud, sometimes just thinking it. I tried every different way to do this to try to get some movement back. And it's hard because it actually is...

And she did that with every one of her body parts until she could move again. I did that for years. Just stared at my body and said, move your index finger, move your big toe. Sometimes vocalizing it out loud, sometimes just thinking it. I tried every different way to do this to try to get some movement back. And it's hard because it actually is...

And she did that with every one of her body parts until she could move again. I did that for years. Just stared at my body and said, move your index finger, move your big toe. Sometimes vocalizing it out loud, sometimes just thinking it. I tried every different way to do this to try to get some movement back. And it's hard because it actually is...

like taxing, like physically taxing on my body, which is something I would have never expected because it's not like I'm moving, but it feels like there's a buildup of, I don't know, the only way I can describe it is They're like signals that aren't getting through from my brain down because there's that gap in my spinal cord. So brain down and then from my hand back up to the brain.

like taxing, like physically taxing on my body, which is something I would have never expected because it's not like I'm moving, but it feels like there's a buildup of, I don't know, the only way I can describe it is They're like signals that aren't getting through from my brain down because there's that gap in my spinal cord. So brain down and then from my hand back up to the brain.

like taxing, like physically taxing on my body, which is something I would have never expected because it's not like I'm moving, but it feels like there's a buildup of, I don't know, the only way I can describe it is They're like signals that aren't getting through from my brain down because there's that gap in my spinal cord. So brain down and then from my hand back up to the brain.

And so it feels like those signals get stuck in whatever body part that I'm trying to move and they just build up and build up and build up until they burst. And then once they burst, I get like this really weird sensation of everything sort of like dissipating back out to level. And then I do it again.

And so it feels like those signals get stuck in whatever body part that I'm trying to move and they just build up and build up and build up until they burst. And then once they burst, I get like this really weird sensation of everything sort of like dissipating back out to level. And then I do it again.

And so it feels like those signals get stuck in whatever body part that I'm trying to move and they just build up and build up and build up until they burst. And then once they burst, I get like this really weird sensation of everything sort of like dissipating back out to level. And then I do it again.

It's also just like a fatigue thing, like a muscle fatigue, but without actually moving your muscles. It's very, very bizarre. And then if you try to stare at a body part or think about a body part and move for two, three, four, sometimes eight hours, it's very taxing on your mind. It takes a lot of focus. It was a lot easier at the beginning because I wasn't able to