Phoebe

I think I'm also struggling with, we've been doing the whole IVF thing, trying to have kids.

And then I worry about if he's sleep deprived, you know, with a baby and, you know, would do something to hurt the baby.

I mean, he is very, when he is asleep, he is very convincing that he is awake.

He can turn the light on, walk around, make eye contact with you, have a conversation and he's actually asleep.

Right?

Yeah, we don't have to solve it now.

I am not.

But I'll be honest, the night that it happened, that was going through my head is that I don't feel safe.

And oh, my God, we're trying to have a baby and he's going to kill the baby.

And I was spiraling really hard.

And then, you know, Googling and, you know, Google says everything is the end of the world.

I think I've kind of pulled myself out of out of that.

Yeah, it's quite the dichotomy.

Yeah, I never expected that to happen.

No.

Yeah, I'm hoping to get to a place to accept this as, you know, an event that happened that we can get through rather than, oh my God, this is going to destroy our whole relationship.

No, he has been really torn up about it.

Yeah.

No, but...

Me and him are so in sync on so many things and so in love that I think that we can do it.