Professor Katriona O'Sullivan

And I'm like, oh my God, he doesn't like me.

So without therapy, I just believed all the things that I was feeling in the world and that had a really negative effect.

But yeah, the suspicious thing is really challenging and

And, you know, the hypervigilant stuff.

And but also it can it does serve me, Ray, because like I really am sensitive to people and I'm really conscious of like when a mood changes or when something happens.

So sometimes I'm not of this mindset.

Oh, it's my superpower.

I hate that stuff, Ray.

I like, you know, it made me really resilient.

Fucking take my resilience back.

Just give me mediocre.

I envy mediocre.

I said this to someone yesterday.

My aspiration is mediocre.

And they were like, what?

But yeah, the consequence of the trauma is that hypervigilance and the sensitivity to negativity, which makes the world a tiring place to navigate at times.

But also I know it now and I can manage it and I can talk to people about it.

And also I can be really conscious of other people.

And that makes me really kind sometimes.

I'm really conscious.