Róisín Ingle

I didn't know when the morning he died, but...

Even him dying was, it was all out of, it didn't make sense.

And it was strange and it singled you out as some kind of weird person.

And probably the fact that he'd been in hospital all those times has probably already made you feel a bit different.

But yeah, definitely the suicide bit.

It's not something we were going to be talking about.

And even within our family.

You know, it's not just that we kind of, behind closed doors, we were all talking about it.

It kind of like just was, it happened and then we just carried on, you know.

That's not probably... Not ideal.

But even my mum would say that's not ideal.

But, you know, at the time, there wasn't any other like, it wasn't like, okay, things kick in now, don't they?

And people say we're going to get counselling, we're going to get help for people, but...

No, it wasn't like that.

So I think that's not, I mean, that's a classic, something really traumatic, terrible happened, shocking.

And then there's nowhere for it to go and all those feelings to go.

And it was kind of a case of, I think, you know...

It can make you as well, it can be good as well because you carry on and you're, I think, I mean, that resilience word, but I just think, you know, there is a bit of that you get sort of, something terrible happens to you very young.

You know more about the world than other people in a weird way.

You kind of have deeper insights into the terrible things that can happen.