Rachel Forde

They could not.

And I remember the first time I heard that door bang shut.

And anybody who has ever been in a cell will know that that is a very, very loud sound.

And even, you know, sometimes like if I'm watching telly now and like I see someone's house get raided or, you know, or there's a loud noise, it brings me right back to that.

I think that like them just closing the door solidified so much for me.

The mattress is about that thin.

And I remember there was a half-eaten hot chicken roll on the mattress.

And I was... I have a severe allergy to egg.

I go into anaphylaxis shock if I eat egg.

And I remember saying, like, I can't even sit down there because what if there is mayonnaise or whatever?

You know, it was just... It was insane.

And...

They kept asking me if I wanted something to eat.

And I was looking at them going, why do you think I can eat in this kind of a situation?

You know, I was fucking sick to my stomach.

I couldn't draw my breath.

I had a huge panic attack.

I didn't know what was going on.

And next thing I knew, there was a doctor in the cell with me and chemised it up because he was giving me a few G5s.

Do you know, I was like, oh, this is great.