Retz Chapman

I was always an adrenaline junkie my whole life.

I really did anything with a board, snowboard, skateboard, longboard, wakeboard.

Pretty sure like a rock or a pebble got into my ball bearing and just messed everything up, and I got all wobbly, and yeah, I just ate the pavement.

Once I was on that, I really couldn't do anything.

I couldn't get out of bed without, you know, doing a little line.

But it was the psychological part that got me the most.

Just, I was never content.

Yeah, it was just always chasing something to get out of that negative feeling that I had.

My life had completely become unmanageable.

My family, they didn't trust me.

My friends didn't want to hang out with me.

I was hanging on to my relationship with my girlfriend by a thread.

And it was at that point where I was like, all right, it's time to try something new.

I was intrigued.

I mean, from what I had researched, it was almost like it was too good to be true.

It overlooked the Pacific Ocean.

There was a big statue of Jesus with his arms held out wide overlooking the ocean.

So that was nice, reassuring.

It was all kind of coming on and the first thing I noticed was a loud buzzing noise kind of like in my ears.

I would see visions that didn't really make sense.